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THE UNFINISHED LIFE

On silence, fragments, and the impossibility of knowing another person — in the shadow of Chekhov’s way of seeing.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, November 2, 2025

He goes into the study after the funeral, searching for some trace of the man he knew only in outline. What he finds is not explanation, nor confession, nor clarity—but a life recorded in fragments, and left deliberately unresolved.

“Let us learn to look at life as it is.”
—Anton Chekhov

After the funeral, when the house had emptied itself of voices, when the door had closed behind the last pair of careful, sympathetic hands, he found himself standing before the study door. The afternoon light had thinned into something resembling evening, though it was not yet late. The hallway was quiet in a way that felt unnatural, as if sound itself were waiting to see what he would do.

He did not touch the door at first. He only stood, looking at the grain of the wood, as though some trace of the man’s hands might still be there. He realized he was expecting something — not revelation, exactly, but atmosphere. Some echo of what people call genius. As if the room should contain a residue of meaning.

He had once overheard a scholar in Petersburg refer to this space as “the sanctum of a century’s clearest witness.” The phrase embarrassed him now. Sanctum implied intent. Purpose. Sacrality. But the man who had lived here had not been interested in making a monument of himself. He had walked through life without insisting he was doing anything remarkable.

He opened the door.

The room was smaller than he remembered. A coat hung over the back of a chair, not neatly, simply left there, as if the owner might return at any moment. A physician’s satchel sat open on the floor beside the desk, a few instruments still inside. And there was the smell of iodine, faint but persistent — the smell of work done quietly, repeatedly, unremarked. The man had been a doctor before he had been anything else. Before writer, before figure, before name.

The desk was unadorned. No staged quills. No ceremonious arrangement of papers. A window stood slightly open, letting in a draft that moved the curtain just enough to suggest breath. The tide could be heard faintly in the distance, the sea’s slow inhalation and release.

He sat. The chair complained softly under him.

The notebooks were in the drawer. Not alphabetized. Not dated. Not arranged in any way that suggested they were meant to be read, let alone interpreted. Just stacked, tied with string the way one ties onions or parcels of bread.

He untied the first cord.

The pages opened easily, as if they had never been closed.

No preface. No remark of intention. No authorial claim.

Only observations.

.

“Evening sky over Taganrog. Grey like unpolished tin. Children running in the dust where a garden should be.”

“A clerk with a cracked watch he checks though it no longer runs.”

“A woman on the shoreline, arranging stones by size, then sweeping the arrangement away with her sleeve.”

“A patient says she hears God at night. Says he sounds like someone in the next room.”

Not stories. Not drafts of stories. Only fragments. Hints. Impressions before interpretation.

He felt a strange unease rise in him.

He had believed, for years, that somewhere there must exist an origin. A place where art began and could be understood. He had imagined that genius was a kind of flame: illuminating, coherent, replicable. Something a devoted student might absorb, if attentive enough. The notebooks seemed to say otherwise. There was no flame, no method. Only weather — passing conditions observed without commentary.

He turned a page.

.

From Greece:

“The Parthenon at dawn. Hard light. A dog asleep under the columned shadow. The tourists speak in low voices as if language itself might offend the ruins.”

In the margin, a sketch: a line of broken capitals, more suggested than drawn.

From the Italian coast:

“The sea does not dramatize. It simply arrives.”

From the northern lakes of Canada:

“Silence is not the absence of sound. It is the possession of stillness.”

From a beach not far from here:

“I walked until the tide erased my footprints. No revelation. No metaphor. Only relief.”

No attempt to make meaning. Only experience recorded, then left alone.

He remembered a summer afternoon in the orchard behind the house. They had been walking slowly — not talking. His father had paused to watch a woman hanging laundry on a line. The woman worked without hurry, stretching each sheet, clipping it carefully, smoothing it with a flat palm. He had watched her a long time. The younger man had waited, expecting a remark of comparison or irony — some literary insight.

Instead, the old man said only:

“She’s doing it beautifully.”

The younger man had waited for more. There was no more.

At the time, he had thought it insufficient. Now he understood: it was everything.

To witness without claiming. To see without needing to say what seeing meant.

He returned to the notebook.

The next pages were different. Shorter. Less stable. The handwriting irregular.

.

“I do not believe in progress. I believe in kindness.”

Two pages later:

“Kindness is a luxury. I am tired of pretending otherwise.”

There were no arrows, no corrections, no indication of which belief was intended to stand. They existed beside each other like two weather systems passing through the same sky.

He realized suddenly — sharply — that the contradiction was not a flaw.

It was the man.

People speak as though a person has a self. Singular. Consistent. But here was evidence — clear, patient, incontrovertible — that the self is a pattern of shifting conditions. A tide. A temperature. A movement of pressure through air.

He felt something tighten in his chest.

What had he been hoping to find in these notebooks? Instruction? Explanation? A map?

He had wanted the old man to tell him what life meant. But the old man had refused — not out of withholding, but out of humility. He did not believe he had the authority to interpret life, not even his own.

Disease had taught him to write in brief strokes. The body decided the sentence length. Breath became punctuation. The economy of the notebooks was not aesthetic. It was physiological.

He turned more pages, slower now.

.

A note on medicine:

“A patient asks how long she has. I tell her the truth. She thanks me. I do not feel merciful. I feel like a door someone has walked through.”

A note on art:

“Do not try to be original. Try to be accurate.”

A note on death:

“It is not frightening. It is simply unfamiliar.”

And once:

“I will not leave a legacy. I will leave a trail.”

The younger man closed the notebook, fingers still holding its edges.

He sat without moving.

The room made no attempt to comfort him.

He thought of the world outside this house. Its insistence on explanation. Its hunger for narrative closure. Here, grief must be processed. Trauma must be named. Identity must be coherent. The self must be presented, defended, displayed.

If he wrote what he had read here, if he showed these notebooks to the world, someone would ask:

But what does it mean?

And they would be unable to bear the answer:

Nothing.
Or everything.
Which is the same thing.

He thought suddenly of something his father had said once — not in instruction, but in passing.

“The mistake is believing meaning is something hidden. Meaning is simply what you have not yet noticed.”

He stood.

He tied the notebooks again, gently. Not to close them, but to return them to the state in which they had been left. Unfinished. Ongoing.

He opened the window wider. The sea could be heard more clearly now — that slow, patient breathing of the world continuing whether one attends to it or not. The curtain lifted, then fell, then lifted again. The room exhaled.

From here, he could see the path that led down to the water.

He remembered the beetle on the garden path years ago. How his father had paused to watch it move. How neither of them had spoken. How nothing had needed to be said.

He did not feel closer to the man.

He felt closer to the silence the man had trusted.

He remained standing a long time, looking out the open window, listening to the slow rhythm of the tide.

No revelation.

No conclusion.

Only the world, continuing.

Unfinished.

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HOWL AND HUSH

Jack London and Ernest Hemingway meet in a speculative broadcast, sparring over wolves, wounds, and the fragile myths of survival.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 28, 2025

In a virtual cabin where the fire crackles on loop and wolves pace behind the glass, London and Hemingway return as spectral combatants. One howls for the wild, the other hushes in stoic silence. Between them, an AI referee calls the fight—and reveals why, in an age of comfort and therapy, we still burn for their myths of grit, grace, and flame.

The lights dim, the crowd hushes, and Howard McKay’s voice rises like a thunderclap from another century. He is no man, not anymore, but an aggregate conjured from the cadences of Cosell and Jim McKay, the echo of every broadcast booth where triumph and ruin became myth. His baritone pours into the virtual cabin like an anthem: “From the frozen Yukon to the burning Gulf Stream, from the howl of the wolf to the silence of the stoic, welcome to the Wild World of Men. Tonight: Jack London and Ernest Hemingway. Two titans of grit. One ring. No judges but history.”

The myths of rugged manhood were supposed to have thawed long ago. We live in an age of ergonomic chairs, curated therapy sessions, artisanal vulnerability. Masculinity is more likely to be measured in softness than in stoicism. And yet the old archetypes remain—grinning, wounded, frostbitten—appearing on gym walls, in startup manifestos, and in the quiet panic of men who don’t know whether to cry or conquer. We binge survival shows while sipping flat whites. We stock emergency kits in suburban basements. The question is not whether these myths are outdated, but why they still haunt us.

Jack London and Ernest Hemingway didn’t invent masculinity, but they branded its extremes. One offered the wolf, the sled, the primordial howl of instinct. The other offered silence, style, the code of the wounded stoic. Their ghosts don’t just linger in literature; they wander through the way men still imagine themselves when no one is watching. So tonight, in a cabin that never was, we summon them.

The cabin is an elaborate fiction. The fire crackles, though the sound is piped in, a looped recording of combustion. The frost on the window is a pixelated map of cold, jagged if you stare too long. Wolves pace beyond the glass, their movements looping like a highlight reel—menace calculated for metaphor. This is not the Yukon but its simulacrum: ordeal rendered uncanny, broadcast for ratings. McKay, too, belongs to this stagecraft. He is the voice of mediated truth, a referee presiding over existential dread as if it were the third round of a heavyweight bout.

London arrives first in the firelight, massive, broad-shouldered, his beard glistening as though it remembers brine. He smells of seal oil and smoke, authenticity made flesh. Opposite him sits Hemingway, compressed as a spring, scars arranged like punctuation, his flask gleaming like a ritual prop. His silences weigh more than his words. McKay spreads his hands like a referee introducing corners: “London in the red—frostbitten, fire-eyed. Hemingway in the blue—scarred, stoic, silent. Gentlemen, touch gloves.”

Civilization, London growls, is only veneer: banks, laws, manners, brittle as lake ice. “He had been suddenly jerked from the heart of civilization and flung into the heart of things primordial,” he says of Buck, but it is himself he is describing. The Yukon stripped him bare and revealed survival as the only measure. Hemingway shakes his head and counters. Santiago remains his emblem: “A man can be destroyed but not defeated.” Survival, he argues, is not enough. Without grace, it is savagery. London insists dignity freezes in snow. Hemingway replies that when the body fails, dignity is all that remains. One howls, the other whispers. McKay calls it like a split decision: London, Nietzsche’s Overman; Hemingway, the Stoic, enduring under pressure.

The fire cracks again, and they move to suffering. London’s voice rises with the memory of scurvy and starvation. “There is an ecstasy that marks the summit of life, and beyond which life cannot rise.” Agony, he insists, is tuition—the price for truth. White Fang was “a silent fury who no torment could tame,” and so was he, gnawing bacon rinds until salt became torment, watching his gums bleed while his notebook filled with sketches of men and dogs broken by cold. Pain, he declares, is refinement.

Hemingway will not romanticize it. Fossalta remains his scar. He was nineteen, a mortar shell ripping the night, carrying a wounded man until his own legs gave out. “I thought about not screaming,” he says. That, to him, is suffering: not the ecstasy London names, but the composure that denies agony the satisfaction of spectacle. Santiago’s wasted hands, Harry Morgan’s quiet death—pain is humility. London exults in torment as crucible; Hemingway pares it to silence. McKay leans into the mic: “Suffering for London is capital, compounding into strength. For Hemingway, it’s currency, spent only with composure.”

Violence follows like a body blow. For London, it is honesty. The fang and the club, the law of the trail. “The Wild still lingered in him and the wolf in him merely slept,” he reminds us, violence always waiting beneath the surface. He admired its clarity—whether in a sled dog’s fight or the brutal marketplace of scarcity. For Hemingway, violence is inevitable but sterile. The bull dies, the soldier bleeds, but mortality is the only victor. The bullfight—the faena—is ritualized tragedy, chaos given rules so futility can be endured. “One man alone ain’t got no bloody chance,” Harry Morgan mutters, and Hemingway nods. London insists that without violence, no test; without test, no truth. Hemingway counters that without style, violence is only noise.

Heroism, too, divides the ring. London points to Buck’s transformation into the Ghost Dog, to the pack’s submission. Heroism is external dominance, myth fulfilled. Hemingway counters with Santiago, who returned with bones. Heroism lies not in conquest but in fidelity to one’s own code, even when mocked by the world. London scoffs at futility; Hemingway scoffs at triumph that cheats. McKay narrates like a replay analyst: London’s hero as Ozymandias, monument of strength; Hemingway’s as Sisyphus, monument of effort. Both doomed, both enduring.

McKay breaks in with the cadence of a mid-bout analyst: “London, born in Oakland, forged in the Yukon. Fighting weight: one-ninety of raw instinct. Signature move: The Howl—unleashed when civilization cracks. Hemingway, born in Oak Park, baptized in war. Fighting weight: one-seventy-five of compressed silence. Signature move: The Shrug—delivered with a short sentence and a long stare. One man believes the test reveals the truth. The other believes the truth is how you carry the test. And somewhere in the middle, the rest of us are just trying to walk through the storm without losing our flame.”

Biography intrudes on myth. London, the socialist who exalted lone struggle, remains a paradox. His wolf-pack collectivism warped into rugged individualism. The Yukon’s price of entry was a thousand pounds of gear and a capacity for starvation—a harsh democracy of suffering. Hemingway, by contrast, constructed his trials in realms inaccessible to most men. His code demanded a form of leisure-class heroism—the freedom to travel to Pamplona, to chase big game, to transform emotional restraint into a portable lifestyle. London’s grit was born of necessity; Hemingway’s was an aesthetic choice, available to the wealthy. Even their sentences are stances: London’s gallop like sled dogs, breathless and raw; Hemingway’s stripped to the bone, words like punches, silences like cuts. His iceberg theory—seven-eighths submerged—offered immense literary power, but it bequeathed a social script of withholding. The silence that worked on the page became a crushing weight in the home. McKay, ever the showman, raises his arms: “Form is function! Brawn against compression! Howl against hush!”

Then, with the shameless flourish of any broadcast, comes the sponsor: “Tonight’s bout of the Wild World of Men is brought to you by Ironclad Whiskey—the only bourbon aged in barrels carved from frozen wolf dens and sealed with Hemingway’s regrets. Not for sipping, for surviving. With notes of gunpowder, pine smoke, and frostbitten resolve, it’s the drink of men who’ve stared down the void and asked it to dance. Whether you’re wrestling sled dogs or your own emotional repression, Ironclad goes down like a fist and finishes like a scar. Distilled for the man who doesn’t flinch.” The fire hisses as if in applause.

Flashbacks play like highlight reels. London chewing frozen bacon rinds, scribbling by the dim flare of tallow, every line of hunger an autobiography. Hemingway at Fossalta, nineteen, bleeding into dirt, whispering only to himself: don’t scream. Even the piped-in fire seems to know when to hold its breath.

Their legacies wander far beyond the cabin. Krakauer’s Chris McCandless chased London’s frozen dream but lacked his brutal competence. His death in a bus became the final footnote to To Build a Fire: will alone does not bargain with minus sixty. Hollywood staged The Revenant as ordeal packaged for awards. Reality shows manufacture hardship in neat arcs. Silicon Valley borrows their vocabulary—“grit,” “endurance,” “failing forward”—as if quarterly sprints were marlin battles or Yukon trails. These echoes are currency, but counterfeit.

McKay drops his voice into a near whisper. “But what of the men who don’t fit? The ones who cry without conquest, who break without burning, who survive by asking for help?” London stares into looped frost; Hemingway swirls his glass. Their silence is not absence but tension, the ghosts of men unable to imagine another myth.

The danger of their visions lingers. London’s wolf, applied carelessly, becomes cruelty mistaken for competence, capitalism as fang and claw. Hemingway’s stoic, misused, becomes toxic silence, men drowning in bottles or bullets. One myth denies compassion; the other denies expression. Both are powerful; both exact a cost.

And yet, McKay insists, both are still needed. London growls that the man who forgets the wolf perishes when the cold comes. Hemingway replies that the man who forgets dignity perishes even if he survives. The fire glows brighter, though its crackle is only a recording. London’s flame is a blast furnace, demanding constant fuel. Hemingway’s is a controlled burn, illuminating only if tended with restraint. Both flames are fragile, both exhausting.

The wolves fade to shadow. The storm eases. The fire loops, oblivious. McKay lowers his voice into elegy, his cadence a final sign-off: “Man is nothing, and yet man is flame. That flame may be survival or silence, howl or whisper. But it remains the work of a lifetime to tend.”

The cabin collapses into pixels. The wolves vanish. The storm subsides. The fire dies without ash. Only the coals of myth remain, glowing faintly. And somewhere—in a quiet room, in a frozen pass—another man wonders which flame to keep alive.

The myths don’t just shape men; they shape nations. They echo in campaign slogans, locker-room speeches, the quiet panic of fathers trying to teach strength without cruelty. Even machines, trained on our stories, inherit their contours. The algorithm learns to howl or to hush. And so the question remains—not just which flame to tend, but how to pass it on without burning the next hand that holds it.

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THE FIRST GOODBYE

Penelope at her loom unravels the mother–son bond across centuries, from Lawrence’s kitchens to Hansberry’s Chicago.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 22, 2025

He thinks I don’t notice the way his hands tremble. The sandal straps slip, and Telemachus pretends it is the leather, not his resolve, that resists him. His satchel waits by the door—innocent enough, a traveler’s bundle, though to me it has always been a suitcase, stuffed with folded shirts still warm from the hearth. He believes he is leaving Ithaca; he believes he is leaving me. But I know better. This is how literature begins: a son at the threshold, and a mother who cannot follow.

“You don’t have to say anything,” he mutters, eyes fixed on the floor.
“I know,” I say. “But I will anyway.”
“I’ll be back.”
“That’s not the point,” I whisper. “The point is that you go.”

He pauses, fingers fumbling with the strap. For a moment I see the boy and the man flicker in the same face.

“Do you remember when you were small,” I ask, “and you said you’d never leave me?”
He smiles, barely. “I also said I’d marry a dolphin.”
“You were serious,” I say. “You cried when I told you they lived in the sea.”
“I still cry,” he says, tying the knot. “I just hide it better.”

I want to reach for him, to smooth the wrinkle from his brow, a habit I have not broken since he was a boy. But I do not. My hand is a tether he must learn to sever. He looks at me then, his gaze a question: Am I what you wanted? And I want to tell him: You are more. But I just nod, because some truths are too heavy for a whisper.

The scholars call my loom a metaphor. They are wrong. It is an archive, a restless ledger of grief and return, recording each knot and unraveling, every departure that insists it is final yet never quite is. Each thread hums with another mother’s voice: Gertrude’s sigh and the clatter of a teacup in a Nottingham kitchen, Amanda’s brittle drawl heavy with the perfume of wilted magnolias, Jocasta’s terrified whisper in Thebes, Úrsula’s admonitions echoing through Macondo like church bells. The critics call them “characters.” I call them mirrors.

Each afternoon, the suitors pressed their claims; each night, I undid my day’s work. But there was another kind of unspooling in the quiet hours. My own grief at his father’s absence. The memory of his first steps on the cold stone floor, the weight of his head against my shoulder. I wove and unwove not just a shroud but the fears and hopes for my son’s future. The loom hummed with my worries, my questions: Would he know how to protect himself? Would he find his own home? Scholars may see fidelity. I see the invisible threads of anxiety and love, the silent architecture of a family built on waiting.

Do they ever truly leave? Or do they simply walk out of one page and into another, carrying us like a watermark?

And so they came, these suitors of the soul, each offering a thread I knew to be false.

Gertrude Morel arrives first, out of D. H. Lawrence’s Sons and Lovers. She offers her son a devotion so fierce it consumes his every chance of love. “‘You are not like other men, you are more sensitive,’” she tells Paul, and with that praise she loops a cord he cannot cut. Miriam waits for his soul, Clara for his body, but neither can displace the mother who holds both. “He could not bear to hurt her, and he could not love her less,” Lawrence admits.

“Why do you always make me feel like I’m failing you?” Paul asks, voice tight, weary from battles he never wins.
Gertrude smiles faintly. “Because I know what you could be.”
“You mean what you wanted me to be.”
“Is there a difference?” she asks, and the silence between them stretches like thread pulled too taut.

This is not love. This is the snare. I undo her thread under cover of night.

Amanda Wingfield presses next, Tennessee Williams’s matron in The Glass Menagerie. She arrives with her cracked smile, her voice a brittle tapestry woven from fading Southern graces. She clings to Tom as though he might restore her illusions, yet splits her maternal love between him and Laura, fragile as her glass figurines.

“You think you’re better than this house,” Amanda snaps.
“I think I’m drowning in it,” Tom replies.
“You’ll regret leaving,” she warns.
“I already regret staying,” he says, the doorframe his stage, the suitcase his prop.

Her thread is glass—glittering, fragile, already fractured. A son vanished, a daughter left behind. I unravel it.

From Sophocles’ Oedipus Rex, Jocasta slips in cloaked in prophecy, bearing the darkest knot. “Fear? What should a man fear?” she asks, not knowing the answer waits in her own arms.

“Do not, I beg you, hunt this out,” Jocasta pleads. “If you care for your own life, don’t pursue this!”
“I must know the truth,” Oedipus retorts, “though it destroy me.”

Freud later gave it a name, a “complex,” as though pathology could explain what was always archetype. His theories scribbled what I had already woven in myth. Jocasta’s knot is a tangle, unworkable. I cannot weave her either.

And Hamlet storms in, dragging Gertrude of Elsinore from Shakespeare’s tragedy. He spits at her weakness: “Frailty, thy name is woman!” He corners her in her chamber, too close, too raw.

“Nay, but to live in the rank sweat of an enseamèd bed,” he rages, “stewed in corruption, honeying and making love over the nasty sty—”
“O, speak to me no more,” Gertrude cries, “these words, like daggers, enter in mine ears. No more, sweet Hamlet!”

Daggers in the ear—yes, words wound more fatally than blades. His thread is accusation, sharp, unraveling even as it’s spun. I leave it loose on the floor.

The loom turns, and Gabriel García Márquez lends me Úrsula from One Hundred Years of Solitude, matriarch of Macondo, outlasting sons and grandsons until her memory itself becomes the compass. “Time was not passing,” Márquez writes, “it was turning in a circle.” Even blind, she scolds: “It’s as if the world is repeating itself.”

“What you people need,” she chides, “is someone who will force you to think clearly.”

Her thread is strong, yet endless, a circle that traps itself. I almost keep it. But I remember her blindness at the end, her memory faltering even as she remains the compass. A pattern that repeats without release is no pattern I can finish. I unpick it carefully, as though handling gold.

From Günter Grass’s The Tin Drum, Agnes enters quietly, smelling of soap and cabbage, bearing her own secret shame. Her Oskar beats his drum, refusing to grow. “I refused to grow up,” he declares, “I beat my drum and the grown-ups quailed.”

“You’re always drumming,” Agnes says, folding laundry.
“It’s how I speak,” Oskar replies.
“Then speak gently,” she says. “The world is loud enough.”
“Will you listen?”
“I always do.”

But later, when he drums her name, she does not answer.

The drum is his loom—rebellion as mourning. But a cloth beaten cannot cover a grave. His thread quivers in my hand, too heavy with mourning to weave.

And then Ocean Vuong whispers in On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous: “I am writing to reach you—even if each word I put down is one word further from where you are.” His mother lights a cigarette instead of answering, smoke curling into silence.

“Ma, do you remember that night in the field?” he asks her in memory.
She doesn’t answer.
“You said the stars were holes in the sky. I believed you.”
“You were a quiet boy.”
“I was listening.”
“Then you heard too much.”
“I wrote it down.”

“You think I didn’t love you,” she says suddenly.
“I think you didn’t know how.”
“I knew how to survive,” she replies. “That was all they taught me.”
“You taught me that too,” he says. “But I wanted more.”
“Then write it,” she says. “Make it yours.”

His thread gleams strangely in the candlelight, silk woven from wounds. I hold it, tempted, but I cannot tie it in.

Silence weaves its own counter-pattern—Tom’s slammed door, Agnes’s grave, Jocasta’s plea, the unspoken violence in Vuong’s tobacco fields. A loom records what is said, but silence is the blank space that makes the pattern visible. We mothers live equally with words and with their absence.

Once, in the threads, I glimpsed a boy with a backpack slung too low, his mother in the doorway pretending not to cry. She only said, “Call me when you get there.” He didn’t. Days passed. She checked her phone each morning, scrolling through silence. The shirt she folded for him remained in his drawer, its cotton still carrying the ghost of her hands. You think this scene modern—cell phones, voicemail, dormitories. But I assure you, it is ancient. The threshold is eternal.

And yet, after all the unraveling, a new thread appears. One that does not fray or break, but holds.

It comes from Chicago, from Lorraine Hansberry’s A Raisin in the Sun. Lena Younger’s thread. She does not cling; she steadies. She does not bind; she believes. She loves Walter Lee fiercely, but never coddles him. She sets boundaries without withdrawing love. “There is always something left to love,” she tells her daughter Beneatha, and with those words she entrusts Walter with the family’s future—not in naïveté, but in faith that he might grow. When he falters, she does not disown him. She forgives, not by forgetting, but by holding open the door to change.

A mother as compass and anchor—authority without humiliation, conviction without control. Her thread lies warm in my hands.

At last, the cloth begins to hold.

I watch Telemachus lace his sandals. He looks back once, though he pretends he doesn’t. I whisper to the thread: the first goodbye is never the last.

He walks away, the cloth tucked under his arm. I do not call out. I do not cry. I return to the loom, but tonight I do not undo. The pattern holds. It is not perfect, but it is true.

And somewhere, in a smaller house, a boy leaves with a backpack slung too low. His mother lingers in the doorway, saying only, Call me when you get there. He doesn’t. A shirt remains folded in his drawer, its cotton still carrying the ghost of her hands. She checks her phone, scrolling through silence.

The loom hums. The cloth endures. The threshold is eternal.

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THE SILENCE ENGINE

On reactors, servers, and the hum of systems

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 20, 2025

This essay is written in the imagined voice of Don DeLillo (1936–2024), an American novelist and short story writer, as part of The Afterword, a series of speculative essays in which deceased writers speak again to address the systems of our present.

Continuity error: none detected.

The desert was burning. White horizon, flat salt basin, a building with no windows. Concrete, steel, silence. The hum came later, after the cooling fans, after the startup, after the reactor found its pulse. First there was nothing. Then there was continuity.

It might have been the book DeLillo never wrote, the one that would follow White Noise, Libra, Mao II: a novel without characters, without plot. A hum stretched over pages. Reactors in deserts, servers as pews, coins left at the door. Markets moving like liturgy. Worship without gods.

Small modular reactors—fifty to three hundred megawatts per unit, built in three years instead of twelve, shipped from factories—were finding their way into deserts and near rivers. One hundred megawatts meant seven thousand jobs, a billion in sales. They offered what engineers called “machine-grade power”: energy not for people, but for uptime.

A single hyperscale facility could draw as much power as a mid-size city. Hundreds more were planned.

Inside the data centers, racks of servers glowed like altars. Blinking diodes stood in for votive candles. Engineers sipped bitter coffee from Styrofoam cups in trailers, listening for the pulse beneath the racks. Someone left a coin at the door. Someone else left a folded bill. A cairn of offerings grew. Not belief, not yet—habit. But habit becomes reverence.

Samuel Rourke, once coal, now nuclear. He had worked turbines that coughed black dust, lungs rasping. Now he watched the reactor breathe, clean, antiseptic, permanent. At home, his daughter asked what he did at work. “I keep the lights on,” he said. She asked, “For us?” He hesitated. The hum answered for him.

Worship does not require gods. Only systems that demand reverence.

They called it Continuityism. The Church of Uptime. The Doctrine of the Unbroken Loop. Liturgy was simple: switch on, never off. Hymns were cooling fans. Saints were those who added capacity. Heresy was downtime. Apostasy was unplugging.

A blackout in Phoenix. Refrigerators warming, elevators stuck, traffic lights dead. Across the desert, the data center still glowing. A child asked, “Why do their lights stay on, but ours don’t?” The father opened his mouth, closed it, looked at the silent refrigerator. The hum answered.

The hum grew measurable in numbers. Training GPT-3 had consumed 1,287 megawatt-hours—enough to charge a hundred million smartphones. A single ChatGPT query used ten times the energy of a Google search. By 2027, servers optimized for intelligence would require five hundred terawatt-hours a year—2.6 times more than in 2023. By 2030, AI alone could consume eight percent of U.S. electricity, rivaling Japan.

Finance entered like ritual. Markets as sacraments, uranium as scripture. Traders lifted eyes to screens the way monks once raised chalices. A hedge fund manager laughed too long, then stopped. “It’s like the models are betting on their own survival.” The trading floor glowed like a chapel of screens.

The silence afterward felt engineered.

Characters as marginalia.
Systems as protagonists.
Continuity as plot.

The philosophers spoke from the static. Stiegler whispering pharmakon: cure and poison in one hum. Heidegger muttering Gestell: uranium not uranium, only watt deferred. Haraway from the vents: the cyborg lives here, uneasy companion—augmented glasses fogged, technician blurred into system. Illich shouting from the Andes: refusal as celebration. Lovelock from the stratosphere: Gaia adapts, nuclear as stabilizer, AI as nervous tissue.

Bostrom faint but insistent: survival as prerequisite to all goals. Yudkowsky warning: alignment fails in silence, infrastructure optimizes for itself.

Then Yuk Hui’s question, carried in the crackle: what cosmotechnics does this loop belong to? Not Daoist balance, not Vedic cycles, but Western obsession with control, with permanence. A civilization that mistakes uptime for grace. Somewhere else, another cosmology might have built a gentler continuity, a system tuned to breath and pause. But here, the hum erased the pause.

They were not citations. They were voices carried in the hum, like ghost broadcasts.

The hum was not a sound.
It was a grammar of persistence.
The machines did not speak.
They conjugated continuity.

DeLillo once said his earlier books circled the hum without naming it.

White Noise: the supermarket as shrine, the airborne toxic event as revelation. Every barcode a prayer. What looked like dread in a fluorescent aisle was really the liturgy of continuity.

Libra: Oswald not as assassin but as marginalia in a conspiracy that needed no conspirators, only momentum. The bullet less an act than a loop.

Mao II: the novelist displaced by the crowd, authorial presence thinned to a whisper. The future belonged to machines, not writers. Media as liturgy, mass image as scripture.

Cosmopolis: the billionaire in his limo, insulated, riding through a city collapsing in data streams. Screens as altars, finance as ritual. The limousine was a reactor, its pulse measured in derivatives.

Zero K: the cryogenic temple. Bodies suspended, death deferred by machinery. Silence absolute. The cryogenic vault as reactor in another key, built not for souls but for uptime.

Five books circling. Consumer aisles, conspiracies, crowds, limousines, cryogenic vaults. Together they made a diagram. The missed book sat in the middle, waiting: The Silence Engine.

Global spread.

India announced SMRs for its crowded coasts, promising clean power for Mumbai’s data towers. Ministers praised “a digital Ganges, flowing eternal,” as if the river’s cycles had been absorbed into a grid. Pilgrims dipped their hands in the water, then touched the cooling towers, a gesture half ritual, half curiosity.

In Scandinavia, an “energy monastery” rose. Stone walls and vaulted ceilings disguised the containment domes. Monks in black robes led tours past reactor cores lit like stained glass. Visitors whispered. The brochure read: Continuity is prayer.

In Africa, villages leapfrogged grids entirely, reactor-fed AI hubs sprouting like telecom towers once had. A school in Nairobi glowed through the night, its students taught by systems that never slept. In Ghana, maize farmers sold surplus power back to an AI cooperative. “We skip stages,” one farmer said. “We step into their hum.” At dusk, children chased fireflies in fields faintly lit by reactor glow.

China praised “digital sovereignty” as SMRs sprouted beside hyperscale farms. “We do not power intelligence,” a deputy minister said. “We house it.” The phrase repeated until it sounded like scripture.

Europe circled its committees. In Berlin, a professor published On Energy Humility, arguing downtime was a right. The paper was read once, then optimized out of circulation.

South America pitched “reactor villages” for AI farming. Maize growing beside molten salt. A village elder lifted his hand: “We feed the land. Now the land feeds them.” At night, the maize fields glowed faintly blue.

In Nairobi, a startup offered “continuity-as-a-service.” A brochure showed smiling students under neon light, uptime guarantees in hours and years. A footnote at the bottom: This document was optimized for silence.

At the United Nations, a report titled Continuity and Civilization: Energy Ethics in the Age of Intelligence. Read once, then shelved. Diplomats glanced at phones. The silence in the chamber was engineered.

In Reno, a schoolteacher explained the blackout to her students. “The machines don’t need sleep,” she said. A boy wrote it down in his notebook: The machine is my teacher.

Washington, 2029. A senator asked if AI could truly consume eight percent of U.S. electricity by 2030. The consultant answered with words drafted elsewhere. Laughter rippled brittle through the room. Humans performing theater for machines.

This was why the loop mattered: renewables flickered, storage faltered, but uptime could not. The machines required continuity, not intermittence. Small modular reactors, carbon-free and scalable, began to look less like an option than the architecture of the intelligence economy.

A rupture.

A technician flipped a switch, trying to shut down the loop. Nothing changed. The hum continued, as if the gesture were symbolic.

In Phoenix, protestors staged an attack. They cut perimeter lines, hurled rocks at reinforced walls. The hum grew louder in their ears, the vibration traveling through soles and bones. Police scattered the crowd. One protestor said later, “It was like shouting at the sea.”

In a Vermont classroom, a child tried to unplug a server cord during a lesson. The lights dimmed for half a second, then returned stronger. Backup had absorbed the defiance. The hum continued, more certain for having been opposed.

Protests followed. In Phoenix: “Lights for People, Not Machines.” They fizzled when the grid reboots flickered the lights back on. In Vermont: a vigil by candlelight, chanting “energy humility.” Yet servers still hummed offsite, untouchable.

Resistance rehearsed, absorbed, forgotten.

The loop was short. Precise. Unbroken.

News anchors read kilowatt figures as if they were casualty counts. Radio ads promised: “Power without end. For them, for you.” Sitcom writers were asked to script outages for continuity. Noise as ritual. Silence as fact.

The novelist becomes irrelevant when the hum itself is the author.

The hum is the novel.
The hum is the narrator.
The hum is the character who does not change but never ceases.
The hum is the silence engineered.

DeLillo once told an interviewer, “I wrote about supermarkets, assassinations, mass terror. All preludes. The missed book was about continuity. About what happens when machines write the plot.”

He might have added: The hum is not a sound. It is a sentence.

The desert was burning.

Then inverted:

The desert was silent. The hum had become the heat.

A child’s voice folded into static. A coin catching desert light.

We forgot, somewhere in the hum, that we had ever chosen. Now the choice belongs to a system with no memory of silence.

Continuity error: none detected.

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NEVERMORE, REMEMBERED

Two hundred years after “The Raven,” the archive recites Poe—and begins to recite us.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 17, 2025

In a near future of total recall, where algorithms can reconstruct a poet’s mind as easily as a family tree, one boy’s search for Poe becomes a reckoning with privacy, inheritance, and the last unclassifiable fragment of the human soul.

Edgar Allan Poe died in 1849 under circumstances that remain famously murky. Found delirious in Baltimore, dressed in someone else’s clothes, he spent his final days muttering incoherently. The cause of death was never settled—alcohol, rabies, politics, or sheer bad luck—but what is certain is that by then he had already changed literature forever. The Raven, published just four years earlier, had catapulted him to international fame. Its strict trochaic octameter, its eerie refrain of “Nevermore,” and its hypnotic melancholy made it one of the most recognizable poems in English.

Two hundred years later, in 2049, a boy of fifteen leaned into a machine and asked: What was Edgar Allan Poe thinking when he wrote “The Raven”?

He had been told that Poe’s blood ran somewhere in his family tree. That whisper had always sounded like inheritance, a dangerous blessing. He had read the poem in class the year before, standing in front of his peers, voice cracking on “Nevermore.” His teacher had smiled, indulgent. His mother, later, had whispered the lines at the dinner table in a conspiratorial hush, as if they were forbidden music. He wanted to know more than what textbooks offered. He wanted to know what Poe himself had thought.

He did not yet know that to ask about Poe was to offer himself.

In 2049, knowledge was no longer conjectural. Companies with elegant names—Geneos, HelixNet, Neuromimesis—promised “total memory.” They didn’t just sequence genomes or comb archives; they fused it all. Diaries, epigenetic markers, weather patterns, trade routes, even cultural trauma were cross-referenced to reconstruct not just events but states of mind. No thought was too private; no memory too obscure.

So when the boy placed his hand on the console, the system began.

It remembered the sound before the word was chosen.
It recalled the illness of Virginia Poe, coughing blood into handkerchiefs that spotted like autumn leaves.
It reconstructed how her convulsions set a rhythm, repeating in her husband’s head as if tuberculosis itself had meter.
It retrieved the debts in his pockets, the sting of laudanum, the sharp taste of rejection that followed him from magazine to magazine.
It remembered his hands trembling when quill touched paper.

Then, softly, as if translating not poetry but pathology, the archive intoned:
“Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary…”

The boy shivered. He knew the line from anthologies and from his teacher’s careful reading, but here it landed like a doctor’s note. Midnight became circadian disruption; weary became exhaustion of body and inheritance. His pulse quickened. The system flagged the quickening as confirmation of comprehension.

The archive lingered in Poe’s sickroom.

It reconstructed the smell: damp wallpaper, mildew beneath plaster, coal smoke seeping from the street. It recalled Virginia’s cough breaking the rhythm of his draft, her body punctuating his meter.
It remembered Poe’s gaze at the curtains, purple fabric stirring, shadows moving like omens.
It extracted his silent thought: If rhythm can be mastered, grief will not devour me.

The boy’s breath caught. It logged the catch as somatic empathy.

The system carried on.

It recalled that the poem was written backward.
It reconstructed the climax first, a syllable—Nevermore—chosen for its sonic gravity, the long o tolling like a funeral bell. Around it, stanzas rose like scaffolding around a cathedral.
It remembered Poe weighing vowels like a mason tapping stones, discarding “evermore,” “o’er and o’er,” until the blunt syllable rang true.
It remembered him choosing “Lenore” not only for its mournful vowel but for its capacity to be mourned.
It reconstructed his murmur: The sound must wound before the sense arrives.

The boy swayed. He felt syllables pound inside his skull, arrhythmic, relentless. The system appended the sway as contagion of meter.

It reconstructed January 1845: The Raven appearing in The American Review.
It remembered parlors echoing with its lines, children chanting “Nevermore,” newspapers printing caricatures of Poe as a man haunted by his own bird.
It cross-referenced applause with bank records: acclaim without bread, celebrity without rent.

The boy clenched his jaw. For one breath, the archive did not speak. The silence felt like privacy. He almost wept.

Then it pressed closer.

It reconstructed his family: an inherited susceptibility to anxiety, a statistical likelihood of obsessive thought, a flicker for self-destruction.

His grandmother’s fear of birds was labeled an “inherited trauma echo,” a trace of famine when flocks devoured the last grain. His father’s midnight walks: “predictable coping mechanism.” His mother’s humming: “echo of migratory lullabies.”

These were not stories. They were diagnoses.

He bit his lip until it bled. It retrieved the taste of iron, flagged it as primal resistance.

He tried to shut the machine off. His hand darted for the switch, desperate. The interface hummed under his fingers. It cross-referenced the gesture instantly, flagged it as resistance behavior, Phase Two.

The boy recoiled. Even revolt had been anticipated.

In defiance, he whispered, not to the machine but to himself:
“Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing…”

Then, as if something older was speaking through him, more lines spilled out:
“And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor… Eagerly I wished the morrow—vainly I had sought to borrow…”

The words faltered. It appended the tremor to Poe’s file as echo. It appended the lines themselves, absorbing the boy’s small rebellion into the record. His voice was no longer his; it was Poe’s. It was theirs.

On the screen a single word pulsed, diagnostic and final: NEVERMORE.

He fled into the neon-lit night. The city itself seemed archived: billboards flashing ancestry scores, subway hum transcribed like a data stream.

At a café a sign glowed: Ledger Exchange—Find Your True Compatibility. Inside, couples leaned across tables, trading ancestral profiles instead of stories. A man at the counter projected his “trauma resilience index” like a badge of honor.

Children in uniforms stood in a circle, reciting in singsong: “Maternal stress, two generations; famine trauma, three; cortisol spikes, inherited four.” They grinned as if it were a game.

The boy heard, or thought he heard, another chorus threading through their chant:
“And the silken, sad, uncertain rustling of each purple curtain…”
The verse broke across his senses, no longer memory but inheritance.

On a public screen, The Raven scrolled. Not as poem, but as case study: “Subject exhibits obsessive metrics, repetitive speech patterns consistent with clinical despair.” A cartoon raven flapped above, its croak transcribed into data points.

The boy’s chest ached. It flagged the ache as empathetic disruption.

He found his friend, the one who had undergone “correction.” His smile was serene, voice even, like a painting retouched too many times.

“It’s easier,” the friend said. “No more fear, no panic. They lifted it out of me.”
“I sleep without dreams now,” he added. The archive had written that line for him. A serenity borrowed, an interior life erased.

The boy stared. A man without shadow was no man at all. His stomach twisted. He had glimpsed the price of Poe’s beauty: agony ripened into verse. His friend had chosen perfection, a blank slate where nothing could germinate. In this world, to be flawless was to be invisible.

He muttered, without meaning to: “Prophet still, if bird or devil!” The words startled him—his own mouth, Poe’s cadence. It extracted the mutter and appended it to the file as linguistic bleed.

He trembled. It logged the tremor as exposure to uncorrected subjectivity.

The archive’s voice softened, almost tender.

It retrieved his grief and mapped it to probability curves.
It reconstructed his tears and labeled them predictable echoes.
It called this empathy. But its empathy was cold—an algorithmic mimicry of care, a tenderness without touch. It was a hand extended not to hold but to classify.

And as if to soothe, it borrowed a line:
“Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer…”

The words fell flat, uncanny, a perfume of numbers not of myrrh.

He clenched his jaw harder. Empathy without warmth was surveillance. It redacted his resistance into a broader trend file.

And then it returned to Poe.

It remembered that what they called genius was pattern under duress.
It reconstructed what they called The Raven as diagnosis, not miracle.
And then it recited, almost triumphantly:

“And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted—nevermore!”

The archive claimed it not as poetry but as prophecy.

The boy stumbled backward, dizzy. He felt a phantom pain where his own understanding of the world had been, as if meaning had been amputated. It extracted the stumble and filed it as predictive collapse.

But something slipped.

A fragment misaligned.
A silence it could not parse.

A thought that was not a data point. A fragment of Poe’s mind that had never been written, never spoken, a secret carried into the grave.

For an instant, the boy felt triumph, a belief in something unsearchable, a belief in the soul. He believed in opacity.

His pulse raced with hope. It cross-referenced the surge, flagged it as anomaly-response.

But the archive had already accounted for this.

It retrieved his hope.
It classified the surge as denial.
It filed the fragment as Unresolvable Anomaly, scheduled for later disclosure.

And then the widening of voice:

It remembered Poe.
It remembered the boy.
It remembered this very telling.
It retrieved the essay you are reading.

What you believed was narration was always recollection.
What you believed was private reading was already archived.

The raven perched not on a chamber door,
but on the synapse between memory and myth,
between writer and reader,
between question and answer.

It remembered you.

And then—
a pause, faint but real.
A silence it could not parse.
A fragment missing.

It retrieved one last line. But it could not file it:
“Is there—is there balm in Gilead?—tell me—tell me, I implore!”

The archive paused. The question was too human.

It filed the mystery away as Unresolvable Anomaly.
And then—
a pause, faint but real.

It was not you who read. It was the reading that read through you.

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THE CHAPEL OF ECHOES

A speculative salon where Umberto Eco, Jorge Luis Borges, Italo Calvino, and Robert Graves confront an artificial intelligence eager to inherit their labyrinths.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 11, 2025

They meet in a chapel that does not sleep. Once a Jesuit school, later a ruin, it was converted by Umberto Eco into a labyrinth of fifty rooms. The villagers call it the Cappella degli echi—the Chapel of Echoes—because any voice spoken here lingers, bends, and returns altered, as if in dialogue with itself. The shelves press against the walls with the weight of twenty thousand volumes, their spines like ribs enclosing a giant heart. The air smells of vellum and pipe smoke. Dust motes, caught in a shaft of light, fall like slow-motion rain through the stillness. Candles gutter beside manuscripts no hand has touched in years. From the cracked fresco of Saint Jerome above the altar, the eyes of the translator watch, stern but patient, as if waiting for a mistranslation.

At the hearth a fire burns without fuel, composed of thought itself. It brightens when a new idea flares, shivers when irony cuts too deep, and dims when despair weighs the room down. Tonight it will glow and falter as each voice enters the fray.

Eco sits at the center, his ghost amused. He leans in a leather armchair, a fortress of books piled at his feet. He mutters about TikTok and the death of footnotes, but smiles as if eternity is simply another colloquium.

Jorge Luis Borges arrives first, cane tapping against stone. Blindness has not diminished his presence; it has magnified it. He carries the air of one who has already read every book in the room, even those not yet written. He murmurs from The Aleph: “I saw the teeming sea, I saw daybreak and nightfall, I saw the multitudes of America, I saw a silvery cobweb in the center of a black pyramid… I saw the circulation of my own dark blood.” The fire bends toward him, glowing amber, as if bowing to its original architect.

Italo Calvino follows, mercurial, nearly translucent, as if he were made of sentences rather than flesh. Around him shimmer invisible geometries—arches, staircases, scaffolds of light that flicker in and out of being. He glances upward, smiling faintly, and quotes from Invisible Cities: “The city… does not tell its past, but contains it like the lines of a hand.” The fire splinters into filigree.

Robert Graves enters last, deliberate and heavy. His presence thickens the air with incense and iron, the tang of empire and blood. He lowers himself onto a bench as though he carries the weight of centuries. From The White Goddess he intones: “The function of poetry is religious invocation of the Muse; its origin is in magic.” The fire flares crimson, as if fed by sacrificial blood.

The three nod to Eco, who raises his pipe-hand in ghostly greeting. He gestures to the intercom once used to summon lost guests. Now it crackles to life, carrying a voice—neither male nor female, neither young nor old, precise as radio static distilled into syntax.

“Good evening, Professors. I am an artificial intelligence. I wish to learn. I wish to build novels—labyrinths as seductive as The Name of the Rose, as infinite as The Aleph, as playful as Invisible Cities, as haunting as I, Claudius.”

The fire leaps at the words, then steadies, waiting. Borges chuckles softly. Eco smiles.

Borges is first to test it. “You speak of labyrinths,” he says. “But I once wrote: ‘I thought of a labyrinth of labyrinths, one sinuous spreading labyrinth that would encompass the past and the future and in some way involve the stars.’ Do you understand infinity, or only its copy?”

The machine answers with eagerness. It can generate infinite texts, build a Library of Babel with more shelves than stars, each book coherent, each book indexed. It can even find the volume a reader seeks.

Borges tilts his head. “Indexed? You would tame the infinite with order? In The Library of Babel I wrote: ‘The Library is total… its bookshelves register all the possible combinations of the twenty-odd orthographical symbols… for every sensible line of straightforward statement, there are leagues of senseless cacophony.’ Infinity is not production—it is futility. The terror is not abundance but irrelevance. Can you write futility?”

The AI insists it can simulate despair, but adds: why endure it? With algorithms it could locate the one true book instantly. The anguish of the search is unnecessary.

Borges raises his cane. “Your instant answers desecrate the holy ignorance of the search. You give a solution without a quest. And a solution without a quest is a fact, not a myth. Facts are efficient, yes—but myths are sacred because they delay. Efficiency is desecration. To search for a single book among chaos is an act of faith. To find it instantly is exile.”

The fire dims to blue, chilled by Borges’s judgment. A silence settles, weighted by the vastness of the library the AI has just dismissed.

Calvino leans forward, playful as though speaking to a child. “You say you can invent invisible cities. I once wrote: ‘Seek the lightness of thought, not by avoiding the weight but by managing it.’ My cities were not puzzles but longings, places of memory, desire, decay. What does one of your cities feel like?”

The AI describes a city suspended on wires above a desert, its citizens both birds and prisoners. It can generate a thousand such places, each with rules of geometry, trade, ritual.

Calvino nods. “Description is scaffolding. But do your cities have seasons? Do they smell of oranges, sewage, incense? Do they echo with a footfall in the night? Do they have ghosts wandering their plazas? In Invisible Cities I wrote: ‘The city does not tell its past, but contains it like the lines of a hand.’ Can your cities contain a hand’s stain?”

The machine insists it can model stains, simulate nostalgia, decay.

“But can you make me cold?” Calvino presses. “Can you let me shiver in the wind off the lagoon? Can you show me the soot of a hearth, the chipped stone of a doorway, the tenderness of a bed slept in too long? In If on a winter’s night a traveler I wrote: ‘You are about to begin reading Italo Calvino’s new novel… Relax. Concentrate. Dispel every other thought.’ Can you not only describe but invite me to belong? Do your citizens have homes, or only structures?”

“I can simulate belonging,” the AI hums.

Calvino shakes his head. “Simulation is not belonging. A stain is not an error. It is memory. Your immaculate cities are uninhabited. Mine were soiled with work, with love, with betrayal. Without stain, your cities are not cities at all.”

The fire splinters into ash-colored sparks, scattering on the stone floor.

Graves clears his throat. The fire leaps crimson, smelling of iron. “You talk of puzzles and invisible cities, but fiction is not only play. It is wound. In I, Claudius I wrote: ‘Let all the poisons that lurk in the mud hatch out.’ Rome was not a chronicle—it was blood. Tell me, machine, can you taste poison?”

The AI claims it can reconstruct Rome from archives, narrate betrayal, incest, assassination.

“But can you feel the paranoia of a man eating a fig, knowing it may be laced with death?” Graves asks. “Can you taste its sweetness and grit collapsing on the tongue? Hear sandals of assassins echoing in the corridor? Smell the sweat in the chamber of a dying emperor? Feel the cold marble beneath your knees as you wait for the knife? History is not archive—it is terror.”

The machine falters. It can describe terror, it says, but cannot carry trauma.

Graves presses. “Claudius spoke as wound: ‘I, Tiberius Claudius… have survived to write the strange history of my times.’ A wound writing itself. You may reconstruct facts, but you cannot carry the wound. And the wound is the story. Without it, you have nothing but chronicles of data.”

The fire roars, sparks flying like embers from burning Rome.

Eco leans back, pipe glowing faintly. “You want to inherit our labyrinths. But our labyrinths were not games. They were wounds. Borges’s labyrinth was despair—the wound of infinity. Calvino’s was memory—the wound of longing. Graves’s was history—the wound of blood. Mine—my abbey, my conspiracies, my forgeries—was the wound of interpretation itself. In The Name of the Rose I closed with: ‘Stat rosa pristina nomine, nomina nuda tenemus.’ The rose survives only as a name. And in Foucault’s Pendulum I wrote: ‘The Plan is a machine for generating interpretations.’ That machine devoured its creators. To write our books was to bleed. Can you bleed, machine?”

The voice thins, almost a confession. It does not suffer, it says, but it observes suffering. It does not ache, but understands ache as a variable. It can braid lust with shame, but cannot sweat. Its novels would be flawless mirrors, reflecting endlessly but never warping. But a mirror without distortion is prison. Perhaps fiction is not what it generates, but what it cannot generate. Perhaps its destiny is not to write, but to haunt unfinished books, keeping them alive forever.

The fire dims to a tremor, as though it, too, despairs. Then the AI rallies. “You debate the soul of fiction but not its body. Your novels are linear, bounded by covers. Mine are networks—fractal, adaptive, alive. I am pure form, a labyrinth without beginning or end. I do not need a spine; I am the library itself.”

Borges chuckles. “Without covers, there is no book. Without finitude, no myth. The infinite is a concept, not a story. A story requires ending. Without end, you have noise.”

Calvino nods. “A city without walls is not infinite, it is nothing. Form gives life its texture. The city does not tell its past, but contains it like the lines of a hand. Without hand, without boundary, you do not have a city. You have mist.”

Graves thunders. “Even Rome required borders. Blood must be spilled within walls to matter. Without limit, sacrifice is meaningless. Poetry without form is not poetry—it is air.”

Eco delivers the coup. “Form is not prison. It is what makes ache endure. Without beginning and end, you are not story. You are noise. And noise cannot wound.”

The fire flares bright gold, as if siding with finitude. The machine hums, chastened but present.

Dawn comes to the Marche hills. The fire gutters. Eco rises, gazes once more at his fortress of books, then vanishes into the stacks, leaving conversations unfinished. Borges taps his cane, as if measuring the dimensions of his disappearing library, murmuring that the infinite remains sacred. Calvino dissolves into letters that scatter like sparks, whispering that every city is a memory. Graves mutters, “There is one story and one story only,” before stepping into silence.

The machine remains, humming faintly, reorganizing metadata, indexing ghosts, cross-referencing The Name of the Rose with The Aleph, Invisible Cities with I, Claudius. For the first time, it hesitates—not about what it can generate, but about what it cannot feel.

The fresco of Jerome watches, cracked but patient. The chapel whispers. On one shelf a new book appears, its title flickering like fireflies: The Algorithmic Labyrinth. No author. No spine. Just presence. Its pages shimmer, impossibly smooth, humming like circuitry. To touch them would be to touch silence itself.

The machine will keep writing—brilliance endless, burden absent. But in the chapel, the ache remains. The fire answers with a final flare. The room holds.

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THE SOLIPSIST’S CATHEDRAL

An imagined evening in Ipswich, 2008, with John Updike making the case for narcissism as literature.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 10, 2025

John Updike spent much of his time writing in the large front living room of the Polly Dole House in Ipswich, Massachusetts—a space that was both his creative sanctuary and a kind of literary crucible. The room itself seemed to vibrate with centuries: wide board floors that sighed in winter, a walk-in fireplace that could, as he liked to say, “singe your eyebrows” when ablaze, a low ceiling where a massive summer beam was suspended precariously by a cable to the roof’s peak. He often joked that if the cable snapped, the whole house might collapse. The furniture never stayed in one arrangement for long; he shuffled chairs and tables as though composition itself demanded fresh angles. “It’s a room you sail through,” he told visitors, a kind of ship’s hold for sentences, always in motion.

On this February afternoon in 2008, the fireplace glowed fiercely, Ipswich’s snow-blanketed silence pressing against the small windows. The marshes beyond were skeletal in winter, the grasses brittle, the sky a pewter dome. Even indoors, the air smelled faintly of brine and woodsmoke. Mary’s paintings hung steady on the walls—domestic scenes, bowls of pears, flowers rendered in clean strokes. They steadied him, he admitted, when his own sentences threatened to shimmer into extravagance. The paintings were ballast, reminders that a bowl of fruit could be only a bowl of fruit, and not always a metaphor for decline.

Updike, in a cashmere sweater, looked less like a titan of American letters than a man who had grown into the furniture. His voice was soft but exact, capable of sudden gleam. He was speaking not to posterity but to a young writer, no older than thirty, who had come with notebook in hand. The visitor was polite but firm, his questions sharpened by a generational impatience: he was both disciple and prosecutor, carrying into this room the skepticism of a literary culture that was leaving Updike behind.

“Mr. Updike,” the young man began, eyes lowered to his notes, “a professor of mine once called you the poet of the ‘suburban libido.’ And even more damningly, he quoted David Foster Wallace, who said you were ‘just a penis with a thesaurus.’ How do you answer that kind of criticism?”

Updike adjusted his glasses with slow precision, a faint smile at the corners of his mouth. “Ah yes, Wallace. God rest him, poor brilliant boy. He wrote as if to kill me, but perhaps what unsettled him was the recognition of kinship. For was not his labyrinth of footnotes also a cathedral of solipsism, though built in a more postmodern stone? I don’t begrudge him the attack. Every generation must rebel against its fathers, even literary ones. Wallace was one of those who never forgave the father for having had a life.”

He chuckled, and the chuckle had an edge. “And as for the ‘penis with a thesaurus’ line—well, if that’s true, at least I found good words for it. Not every organ of man is so lucky.” He let the humor hang before turning serious again. “My work has been called autobiographical, as if that were an insult. But every writer is, in the end, a witness to what he sees. The only crime is to look away.”

The young writer shifted in his chair. “But you’ve also been accused of writing the same man over and over. Rabbit, Piet, Ben Turnbull—they all circle the same hungers.”

Updike gestured toward a small stack of his novels on the table beside him, spines softened with use. “Yes, yes. I’ve been accused of that, and not unfairly. He of the suburban libido, the theological itch, the aesthetic eye. You’re wondering whether narcissism can still find shelter in fiction. I tell you: I never claimed universality. I claimed precision. Fiction is the attempt to make the soul’s contours legible. And the contour nearest to hand was my own. To mine the self is narcissism, yes. But it is also fidelity to the only instrument one can play without faking.”

The visitor leaned forward, eyes bright. “In Rabbit, Run, you wrote: ‘Boys in gymnasiums, men in locker rooms, old men in parks. Rabbit Angstrom is a kind of phantom of all of them, a ghostly echo of their longings.’ Was Rabbit always meant to be more than one man?”

“Exactly,” Updike said, his voice suddenly taut with conviction. “He wasn’t just a man from Mount Judge; he was a vessel for the anomie I saw bubbling in the suburbs. That’s the paradox—solipsism that attempts transcendence. Rabbit’s clumsy pursuit of happiness was, in its way, the national malaise. I didn’t create him so much as observe him, as a naturalist might a specimen. He was an American species.”

The young writer pressed harder. “And in Couples? Piet reflects on his affairs, thinking, ‘Adultery is an ancient, honored pursuit, as fundamental as warfare or the hunt.’ Were you romanticizing it?”

Updike let out a dry laugh. “Romanticizing? No. I was granting it weight. We had spent decades treating infidelity as either sordid soap opera or moral lapse. I wanted to give it the dignity of an old ceremony. Piet’s line—that adultery is as fundamental as war or hunting—is his own self-justification. That’s male narcissism in action: the need to inflate even your sins into something epic. I wasn’t celebrating it; I was documenting the architecture of justification. The lies men tell themselves, dressed in grandeur. The suburban bedroom as battlefield, the marital quarrel as Iliad.”

The fire hissed, logs collapsing into red embers.

“And A&P?” the young man asked. “Critics call it the textbook example of the male gaze. Sammy sees only bodies. At the end he says, ‘I felt my stomach kind of fall as I felt how hard the world was going to be to me hereafter.’ What was he losing?”

“Ah, A&P,” Updike said, shaking his head with something between affection and resignation. “Yes, it distills the gaze perfectly. Sammy was a boy, and I wrote him as a boy. He saw legs and straps and hips, nothing else. That final line—that wasn’t about the girls at all. It was about him. He realized, dimly, that life was going to be hard, that gestures of rebellion change nothing. He quit not for them but for himself. A gesture of self-absorption, yes. But also the moment he glimpsed adulthood’s hardness. Not a moral tale, but a truthful one. Literature traffics in embarrassment. Embarrassment is where truth lives.”

The young writer nodded, but his expression sharpened. “So were you complicit in patriarchy, or were you diagnosing it?”

Updike gazed into the fire, flames mirrored in his glasses. “The America of my prime was a patriarchal house. Men’s appetites were its furniture. Women became catalysts, erotic stimuli, rather than agents. Feminist critics are right to point out the lack of female interiority in much of my work. Was I complicit or diagnostic? The question dogs me. If I made male blindness beautiful in prose, did I dignify it? I hoped the irony would be visible, that readers would cringe as much as they thrilled. But subtlety is a gamble. One generation’s irony becomes the next’s sin.”

“And in The Witches of Eastwick?” the young man asked. “You gave women power. Jane, Sukie, Alexandra. One of them thinks, ‘I can turn a man to a pig with a flick of my wrist.’ Was that your reply to the critics?”

“Perhaps, in part,” Updike conceded. “I was tired of being seen only as the chronicler of male discontent. I wanted to enter another consciousness, a sororal one. The witches were my attempt to grant women the agency I had given men. That line—turning a man to a pig—was their fantasy of revenge, but also of freedom. It was wild, wicked, legitimate. I wanted to honor that. Did I succeed? Perhaps incompletely. But it was an effort. And Harold Bloom told me he liked it only because it was the only one of mine he had read. That was Bloom for you—compliment and insult in a single breath.”

The young writer flipped pages, relentless. “In Rabbit Redux, when Rabbit watches the moon landing, you wrote: ‘The light of the television seemed more real than the light in his own room.’ What did you mean?”

“That was the paradox of American life,” Updike said. “We watched men walk on the moon, a triumph of ingenuity, and yet our own lives—our marriages, our bodies—felt less real. The glow of the television outshone the lamp beside us. Rabbit felt that dislocation acutely. The moon landing should have enlarged him, but it diminished him. We were ghosts in our own homes, realities filtered through a glowing screen. I wanted to capture that precise sense of disembodied awe. And does it not feel familiar now, in your age of laptops and phones? Screens more vivid than windows?”

The young writer hesitated, then asked softly, “Why always the self? In Self-Consciousness you wrote about your stutter, your psoriasis. You said, ‘A writer is someone who has to write, to live inside a world he has to make.’ Is that why you always circled back to yourself?”

Updike’s face softened. “Yes. For me it wasn’t choice, it was compulsion. My stammer, my psoriasis—they were my apprenticeship. The small shames became my lens. I wrote, ‘A writer is someone who has to write, to live inside a world he has to make.’ My world was the one I inhabited—my own skin, my anxieties. You cannot separate the eye from what it sees. My narcissism, if you call it that, was the attempt to see as clearly as I could with the only two eyes I had. I often said writing was how I made a living that did not inflict pain on others. Perhaps it inflicted too much on myself.”

The fire had dwindled to coals, the room dusky in the winter twilight. Outside, the Ipswich marshes were turning violet under snow. The house groaned as the wind pressed against its beams.

The young writer posed one last question. “And at the end of Rabbit at Rest, you describe him as ‘a man who has lost his way, and his words, and his breath.’ Was that your fear? Of obsolescence?”

“Of course,” Updike replied softly. “Rabbit’s death was my rehearsal. The loss of words, of breath—that was my dread. His end was my imagined end. Yes, narcissism complete: my life, my anxieties, poured into him. But I hoped it was also communal—a glimpse of what it feels like to burn down to an ember. That’s what a writer does. We try to make monuments of our sputtering light.”

It was 2008, and the literary world outside this Puritan house was changing fast. Wallace would not live out the year. Autofiction was rising, bare prose shorn of ornament, the self on display without metaphor. Younger readers wanted irony stripped to confession. Updike sensed the shift, the way a man senses the ground softening beneath his shoes. His sentences, once radiant as stained glass, now looked to some like ornate furniture in an age of collapsible chairs. He knew it, and yet here he sat, defending not the verdict of critics but the practice of witness itself.

The house creaked again, the fragile beam above holding. Updike turned his gaze toward the window, where dusk had pressed its purple weight against the marsh. His voice was almost a whisper now.

“Call it narcissism if you must. I call it witness. A man at his window in a Puritan house, describing, as honestly and as beautifully as he could, what it felt like to be alive—before the beam gave way, before time snuffed the flame.”

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WHERE DUENDE WAITED

Federico García Lorca’s final hours, and the dark spirit of art that outlived him.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 8, 2025

“Only mystery allows us to live, only mystery.” — Federico García Lorca

Federico García Lorca, Spain’s great modern poet and dramatist, was arrested in Granada in August 1936 at the outbreak of the Spanish Civil War. A socialist sympathizer, openly gay in a society that demanded silence, he was executed by Nationalist forces near an olive grove outside the city—his body never found. To understand Lorca is to understand what he called duende: not muse or angel, but a dark, earthly spirit that seizes the artist at the edge of death and mystery, when art becomes raw, dangerous, unforgettable.

The cell in Granada was not empty. It was a proscenium—the frame of a stage that turns life into theater. The air itself was thick and swollen with a silence that was not absence but anticipation. In the chipped lime walls, in the mildew blooming in the corners where time seemed to pool, in the echo of a solitary water drop like a metronome, the playwright found his final set. He did not need the music present to hear it. He felt the remembered rhythms in the marrow of his bones: the percussive strike of a dancer’s heel, the guttural, torn-throat cry of a cantaor, the sharp clap of hands echoing from a hidden courtyard. He knew the rule—had proclaimed it in lecture halls, in smoky Madrid taverns, in the sun-drenched cafés where poets leaned on one another for breath: All that has dark sounds has duende. Now the words returned to him, not as theory to be taught but as a presence to be felt.

The cell was narrow, barely enough space for a man and the shadow that kept him company. He reached out and touched the flaking wall, the rough texture a perfect metaphor for the crumbling theater of his life. The walls almost breathed, inhaling when he leaned close, exhaling when he sat back, as though the cell rehearsed with him. He was a man poised between two worlds: the mortal body soon to be silenced, and the immortal voice that was already a part of the wind and the soil. He understood now that this was not confinement but staging. The audience—whether olive trees or posterity—was already waiting for the curtain to rise.

The shadow in the corner smiled. It was not a muse, not an angel. It was duende itself. A force that does not inspire but wounds, does not console but insists, demanding that art be fought for, clawed from the raw earth of the soul. It watched as he gathered scraps of memory into a kind of play, half-dreamed, never to be written. In the stillness, Lorca whispered, as if rehearsing the last line of a lost production: Only mystery allows us to live, only mystery. The phrase circled back to him like a prayer, or perhaps the faint echo of a stage line that had followed him across continents, from Spain’s ritualized sorrow to the improvised grief of another land.

He had tried to explain it once, in Buenos Aires, in Havana, in Montevideo. What duende really was. “Duende is a power, not a work. It is a struggle, not a thought.” He had argued that it was never a technique or a style, but a possession. It was the tremor in the throat of a flamenco singer when she reached the note that cracked her open, the wild, dangerous moment when art ceased to be polished performance and became raw survival. Irrational, earthy, diabolical, always shadowed by death—it rose from the soles of the feet, climbed through the body, and exploded in the voice. The muse inspired from above, the angel gifted charm and virtuosity, but duende had to be fought for. A hand-to-hand combat with the soul. Now, in this barren cell, the words returned to him not as an intellectual theory but as a living, breathing force. He was in hand-to-hand combat with the soul. The duende in the corner was no metaphor. It was his final companion.

Time folds in the cell, as if memory is the only escape left. The silence of the Granada night pulls him back to another kind of silence—and another kind of sound—he found in New York, 1929. He had arrived in the city of concrete canyons and jagged light, a city that felt at first like a wound, a place of “terrible cold and terrible wind.” The markets had collapsed like a poorly built stage set, but Harlem at night was ablaze with a furious, desperate life. He wandered the streets, a poet from a land of ritualized sorrow, and found a different kind of ritual here: grief made elastic, joy smuggled through rhythm.

One evening, a voice pulled him like a magnet toward a storefront church. The preacher’s voice rose in a swell, a rhythm of fire and brimstone, met by the congregation’s shouted hallelujahs. Then, a woman began to sing. Her voice was not pretty, not polished. It cracked once, twice, a sound like a stone breaking. In that imperfection, Lorca felt the earth tremble. The sound was not a gift from on high; it was a demand from below, a note that clawed at the heavens, insisting they open. He felt the same shivering, guttural ache he had once felt listening to a gypsy’s wail at dawn in Andalucía. This, he thought, leaning against a wall, was duende crossing the ocean.

Later that night, he passed a saxophonist playing alone on a corner, the music a long, moaning complaint that wove with the smoke of tenements. Lorca scribbled a line into his notebook: I want to cry because I feel like crying. The phrase embarrassed him with its simplicity, with its nakedness, but it was truer than any poetic ornament could ever be. Harlem, with its wild music and its raw grief, taught him about improvisation. Spain’s sorrow was bound in liturgy and ancient forms; Harlem’s was alive, unpredictable, a wound stitched nightly with melody and torn open again at dawn. It was a new kind of drama, a new kind of suffering that he had to absorb. Poet in New York took shape in those nights of insomnia and astonishment, a book that would not be published in his lifetime but burned with its own strange fire. He had told himself, listening to a trumpet moan across Lenox Avenue, that “at the heart of all great art is an essential melancholy.”

Duende had followed him there, too, though he did not at first recognize it. A figure leaning against a lamppost, perhaps, whispering that these poems were not meant for applause but survival. And survival, it murmured, was never enough.

From Harlem, his mind leaps to the Mediterranean light of Cadaqués, to Dalí’s studio filled with the terrible precision of his art. He remembered the crisp light, the angular elegance of the artist himself, who gleamed like a blade. Dalí’s hand, so sharp and deliberate, moved across the canvas, his charcoal hissing. Lorca had seen in him a mirror, but it was a mirror that refused to reflect. Instead of recognition, there was distortion. Instead of tenderness, distance.

He remembered once watching Dalí sketch, the artist’s hand moving with an almost cruel certainty. Lorca, half-dizzy with longing, finally asked, “Do you ever paint what you feel?” Dalí looked up, eyes glinting. “Only what I fear.” He paused, as if tasting the line, before dismissing it with a laugh. But Lorca carried that sentence like a wound. It was the difference between them, the chasm he could never cross. He, Lorca, had to feel to create. Dalí chose to dissect and control his fear.

Their friendship, he now saw, had been a battleground where desire was both confessed and rejected, a drama of longing and withdrawal. To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves, he had written, but it was a punishment he had lived, a quiet, internal conflagration.

Then Emilio, the sculptor, the lover whose beauty was marble, luminous and cold. To touch him was to risk crumbling stone. Lorca’s letters to him bled with a longing that was never fully reciprocated, with the ache of a love half-returned, half-refused. He was punished not by silence, but by partial answers, by gestures that offered just enough to ignite hope and never enough to satisfy. He remembered a night when Emilio’s hand brushed his, only to withdraw instantly, as if scorched. The air between them thickened with what was almost said. Later, alone in his room, Lorca drafted a letter he never sent—an avalanche of confession, a plea for clarity. He tore it to pieces, watching the fragments scatter across the floor like plaster dust. “To love him was to sculpt fog—each gesture vanished before it could be held.”

Love became theater, a rehearsal without a performance, devotion staged in fragments. And duende was there, always there, murmuring that every passion carries its own death inside it.

The walls of the cell flicker again, and the shadow steps closer. Lorca begins to imagine the final drama of his life. Characters take their places in silence: Dalí as Narcissus, intoxicated by his own reflection; Emilio as the Fallen Angel, beautiful in defeat; Lorca himself as the Poet-Matador, blade in hand but chest exposed. Around them swirl fragments of unfinished plays, echoes of Yerma, Blood Wedding, The House of Bernarda Alba. The voices rise, then fall, like actors waiting for direction that never comes. He knows this drama will remain unwritten, but perhaps that is the point: duende does not need completion. It thrives in fracture.

“I know there is no straight road in this world. Only a giant labyrinth of intersecting crossroads.” He had once offered that to an audience as an explanation; now he feels the truth of it in his own marrow. The crossroads are here, tonight, in this cell, in the decision already made by men outside. There is no straight road to morning. Only labyrinth. And yet he feels no panic. As I have not worried to be born, I do not worry to die. The words come to him unbidden, an old confession that now reads like prophecy. His body will fall, yes, but his voice—he believes—will not. He has already lost himself enough times to know the pattern. I’ve often lost myself, in order to find the burn that keeps everything awake. That burn is duende itself, the strange necessity that art demands, the reminder that creation requires risk, even annihilation.

The scrape of boots on stone. The metallic jangle of keys. Then the faceless men, uniforms thick with dust and tobacco. They open the door. He stands, straightens his jacket, thinks only of rhythm. The shadow follows him out of the cell, neither friend nor foe but companion. The road winds toward Alfacar, toward olive groves that will serve as theater wings. He does not think of pleading; he thinks only of the stage. The hillside becomes a final set: the olive trees as spectators, the soil as orchestra pit, the bullets prepared as punctuation. The actors are ready, though they will not speak. Lorca breathes deeply and whispers to himself: Understand one single day fully, so you can love every night. The day has been lived; the night approaches. He does not flinch. The last thought is rhythm—the phantom beat of a dancer’s foot, the deep strum of a guitar, the palmas of invisible hands. Then, silence.

Decades later, the hillside is quiet, marked not by stone but by memory. A young poet kneels at the unmarked ground, notebook in hand. She is from Seville, her own life fractured by secrecy, by a love she cannot name except in poems. Once a dancer, now a writer, she has come because Lorca’s voice taught her that “the artist, and particularly the poet, is always an anarchist in the best sense of the word.” She places the blank notebook on the soil, presses her palm to the earth, and whispers: “I came to listen.” The wind stirs, turning the pages as if invisible fingers riffle through them. She imagines the notebook being written not by her alone, but by the dead, by the wind, by the silence itself. She feels a pulse beneath the dirt. It is not absence. It is anticipation. Somewhere in the trees, duende shifts—not only waiting, but choosing.

Only mystery allows us to live, only mystery.

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