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GRAMMAR OF THE HORIZON

On solar grazing, poetry, and the uneasy duet of instinct and code

The new pastoral hums with circuits and collars, but still remembers the old grammar of the sky.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 27, 2025

In the rolling hills of Ohio, a young ecological entrepreneur turns his family’s land into a dual harvest of wool and watts. With a degree in Agricultural Systems Management and a minor in English Literature, he brings both spreadsheets and stanzas to bear on a new pastoral experiment. Between Marlowe’s seductions and Raleigh’s refusals, he seeks a grammar for an age when every heartbeat becomes data.

The morning light does not fall evenly anymore. It is broken into grids, caught on angled panels of glass and silicon that rise like a second horizon above the meadow. Beneath them, the sheep wander in soft clusters, backs stippled with shadow and light. From above—say, from the drone humming a lazy ellipse in the brightening sky—they look like pixels scattered across a living screen. He inhales: dew-damp wool, mingled with the faint static crackle that comes when the panels shift and catch the sun.

He leans on the gate, looking out over land his grandfather once worked, sustaining both feed crops and the family flock. The crook still hangs by the barn door, but he does not use it. He is not a shepherd by inheritance but by design: a graduate of Ohio State University’s College of Food, Agricultural, and Environmental Sciences, where he majored in Agricultural Systems Management and minored in English Literature. His degree taught him precision—soil analysis, GIS mapping, solar integration—while the minor gave him metaphors, the long pastoral tradition, and a habit of scribbling poems in margins. He came home believing the land could sustain both kinds of literacy: the technical and the lyrical, the grid and the grammar.

Come live with me and be my love,
And we will all the pleasures prove…

The line arrives unbidden, carried across centuries but also across classrooms. He had first encountered it in an OSU literature seminar on the pastoral tradition, where Christopher Marlowe’s seduction was paired with Sir Walter Raleigh’s rebuttal. Now the poems returned like half-remembered songs, threading themselves into the solar fields as if testing the promises of his own venture. His grandfather had quoted Marlowe too, walking the lambing fields with a laugh. It was a poem of timeless spring, of pleasures without consequence. Yet here, the pleasures are measured in kilowatt-hours and kilobytes, every pulse reduced to a data point. He murmurs to himself: I used to read clouds. Now I read code.

At Ohio State, he had learned to read code as landscape: GIS layers of soil health, yield curves, stormwater runoff. He could map a watershed in pixels, trace the energy loss of a poorly angled panel. But in literature courses he had learned to read differently: clouds as symbols, swallows as omens, the way a line of verse could contain both beauty and warning. Together, they gave him a double vision: the spreadsheet and the stanza.

Sometimes he scribbles in a notebook tucked into his coat—lines about thunder, about the smell of lanolin on his hands, about the drone’s insistent, high pitch that reminds him of an oboe tuned to one eternal note. The habit came from his English courses, where professors pressed students to “find the image” that carries experience. He still tries, searching for the metaphor that might hold the cyan-green shadow of the panels, the faint electrical ache of the atmosphere—the realities the algorithms keep reducing.

The solar companies had arrived with promises as lavish as Marlowe’s shepherd: income streams, ecological balance, a harmony of energy and agriculture. The sheep proved ideal partners. They slipped easily among the panels, chewing down weeds that machines could not reach. Their manure fertilized the soil. Their bodies, in motion, cooled the panels with faint breezes. Wool and wattage—an improbable duet.

Across the U.S., more than 113,000 sheep grazed under solar panels in 2024, covering some 129,000 acres of co-located land. Solar grazing has quietly become the most widespread form of agrivoltaics, a hybrid system that now generates between eighteen and twenty-six gigawatts of power per acre each year. In the Midwest, the projects are most numerous; in the South, the acreage stretches widest. His own valley is just a modest link in this network, but the statistics make his pasture feel like a pixel in a vast screen.

But the harmony hums—a constant, low electrical purr—and the balance is an engineering problem. The panels are not silent mirrors; they are active machinery, micro-adjusting throughout the day with faint, metallic clicks, following the sun with the relentlessness of a machine-god. Walking beneath them, the light is wrong. It is no longer the full, golden spill of a western sun, but a fractured, cool cyan-green, changing the color of the grass and the look of the sheep. It feels like living inside a computer screen, where even the air seems filtered and slightly electric. The corners of the panels are sharp; the wiring is a hazard underfoot. The terrain demands constant calibration, as much for man as for machine.

Then came the collars, snug at the neck like halos of necessity. They measured heartbeats, temperatures, gait. Every movement streamed upward to servers in distant cities where algorithms modeled the flock’s health and the land’s yield. He adapted readily at first—it was the language he had studied. His grandfather’s crook leaned forgotten, while a drone now circled at his command.

He knew, too, that his collars were not unique. They were part of a wave: biometric halos increasingly used across solar grazing operations to track stress levels and movement, feeding predictive models that optimize both grass and grid. Research consortia at the National Renewable Energy Laboratory had turned his livelihood into data points in acronyms: PV-SMaRT, which studied stormwater and soil under arrays; InSPIRE, which explored pollinator habitats between rows. Even the American Solar Grazing Association listed him on a map of participants. To the researchers, the tablet in his hand is one more node in a national experiment.

The flowers do fade, and wanton fields
To wayward winter reckoning yields.

Raleigh’s reply feels sharper now than it ever did in books. Promises of eternal spring have always been checked by winter, and here too: the panels cast shadows that stunt grass. The sensors demand constant updates. What had been promised as endless harmony reveals its costs in the glare of maintenance schedules and corporate reports.

Then came the specific demand, the cold logic applied to instinct. The system recommends a grazing rotation: drive the flock north, away from the lush heart of the pasture. His instinct bristles. That grass is thick, ripe for feeding. The north corner is thin and brittle, still scarred from last year’s drought. But the model insists: moving them north will shade the panels more evenly, raising energy efficiency by three percent.

A shrill alert splits the air. Bramble’s collar flashes red. He kneels, palm pressed into her wool. She wriggles, playful. Alive, healthy.

“She’s fine,” he says. His thumb strokes the tight curl of wool at her neck, feeling the smooth warmth of health. He can see the alertness in her dark eye, the steady chew of her jaw.

A technician pulls up in a white truck, logo bright against the dust. She is young, brisk, tablet in hand. “The model says isolate,” she replies.

“For what? She’s eating. Breathing. Look at her. It’s a false positive, a glitch.”

She shifts her weight, avoiding his eyes. “Maybe. But my quota isn’t instinct. It’s compliance with the predictive model.” Her voice is steady, reciting a corporate catechism. “The system flagged a micro-spike in cortisol four hours ago. It is projecting a 60 percent chance of a mild digestive issue within seventy-two hours, which would result in a four-dollar loss of weight-gain efficiency. If we wait for the symptom, we’ve already lost. We have to treat the potentiality.”

Her thumb hovers, then taps. Bramble is loaded into the truck. The cage door rattles shut. For a split second, before turning away, the technician’s eyes flick to the lamb, then to him. A flicker of softness and shame passes, quickly extinguished, as if she too felt the weight of this small, perfectly calculated betrayal. It was the look of a person overruled by their own training. He watches the flock’s heads turn, uneasy, sensing the absence not of a sick one, but of a chosen one, a data-outlier removed for the good of the grid. He feels a sudden, choking silence—the kind that follows an argument you have been overruled on, where the logic is cold and flawless, and utterly wrong.

Thy gowns, thy shoes, thy beds of roses,
Soon break, soon wither, soon forgotten…

Raleigh’s nymph seems to speak through her: no gesture lasts, no promise holds. He stands silent, jaw tight, remembering storms when he and his grandfather dragged lambs by hand into the kitchen, towels by the stove, breathing warmth back into shivering bodies. No algorithm advised them. Only instinct. Only mercy.

At night the panels fold downward, tilting like tired eyelids. The meadow darkens, sheep huddled in faint constellations. He sits with the tablet on his knees, stars overhead. The gains are undeniable. The sensors save lives: fevers caught before symptoms show, storms predicted before clouds gather. Wool weights are steadier, markets smoother. His livelihood more secure.

And yet what slips away is harder to name. The art of watching flocks as one reads weather: not in charts but in tremors of grass, in the hush before thunder. The intimacy of guessing wrong and carrying the consequence. The knowledge that tending is not optimizing but risking, losing, mourning. He thinks of writing this down, as a kind of witness. A sentence about what can’t be graphed. A metaphor to stand where data erases.

Scrolling, he notices a new tab on the dashboard: Health Markets. He taps. The page blossoms into charts and data points. The sheep’s biometric data is not only driving grazing maps and solar cooling forecasts. It is aggregated, anonymized, and then sold—a steady stream of animal heartbeats and gut flora readings transmuted into predictive models, underwriting the risk for major insurers and wellness clinics around the globe. A hedge fund in Singapore uses livestock stress data to predict grain futures. A health-tech startup in California folds ovine heart rates into wellness metrics for anxious human clients. He is not merely selling wool and power; he is selling a commerce in pulse itself.

We are the dreamers of the dust,
Our bleat is brief, our tread is trust.

Hardy had once put the sheep’s lament into verse, their bleats already elegies. He thinks of that now: the flock’s trusting tread turned into actuarial tables, their brief lives underwriting strangers’ futures. What Hardy wrote as pastoral tragedy has here become economic infrastructure.

His flock’s lives, down to the subtle tremor of an anxious breath, are now actuarial futures, underwriting the mortgages and investment strategies of strangers in distant cities. The vertigo is almost physical—his duty of care, his responsibility to the flock, has been financially weaponized. The simple relationship between shepherd and beast is now an extractive contract at the cellular level. He sits there, staring at the screen, understanding that he and the sheep are, in the market’s eyes, exactly the same: nodes of premium data, harvested until the signal drops out.

Marlowe’s voice whispers again of eternal spring, of belts of straw and ivy buds. Raleigh’s nymph interrupts, steady in her refusal:

All these in me no means can move
To come to thee and be thy love.

Between these two traditions—seduction and correction—he feels suspended.

He wonders if the sheep, their pulses pinging skyward, know they are data points in a network. Perhaps ignorance is a form of grace. “The lamb doesn’t know it’s part of a system,” he says aloud. “Maybe that’s mercy.”

And perhaps, he thinks, writing is another form of mercy: to keep describing, in words, what the system reduces to numbers.

A rumble of thunder reaches across the horizon. He glances up, reading it not as data but as sign. He does not check the forecast. He trusts the old grammar of the sky.

At the gate, he logs the day’s note: Grazing complete. Lamb born. His thumb hovers. Then he types: Named her Pixel.

The word glows on-screen, half-code, half-creature. He pockets the tablet, presses his palm into a woolly flank, and walks on, singing. He holds the tablet’s cold glass against the animal’s warmth—a final, stubborn duality. His song is a promise: that even when the field is run by the Algorithm, the Shepherd’s Voice remains.

THIS ESSAY WAS WRITTEN AND EDITED UTILIZING AI

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DO I WAKE OR SLEEP?

A Speculative Morning with Keats

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 25, 2025

“As if I were dissolving.” — John Keats, letter to his brother George, April 1819

In Hampstead, on a spring morning in 1819, John Keats sat beneath a plum tree and wrote “Ode to a Nightingale.” This is how the lines may have come to him—half vision, half dissolution.

Brown clatters a cup somewhere inside. The sound is an unwelcome punctuation mark on the morning’s silence, a reminder of the relentless normalcy of domestic life. The room has felt too narrow for breath, not just for my ailing lungs, but for the grief that keeps the curtains drawn. Barely six months since my brother Tom slipped away, the house still smells faintly of smoke, paper, and the sweet-sick residue of medicine. His absence hangs in the air. That weight has driven me to the grass, away from the claustrophobia of the sickroom.

The garden receives me. The grass is damp, pressing cool blades into my palms. Light filters through the plum tree leaves, breaking into fragments on the soil. The blossoms drift like a quiet snowfall, powdering my sleeve with pale dust as if testing whether the body still belongs to earth. Beyond the hedge, a cart rattles, a dog barks, a bell tolls faintly from Hampstead. Life continues its tedious bookkeeping. But here, there is only the hush before song.

Brown’s footsteps echo faintly, a rhythm too human for the stillness I crave. Even his voice, when it rises in greeting, feels like a tether to the mundane. I do not resent him; I envy his ease with the world. He pours tea, hums to himself, and carries on. I am fixed under the plum tree, waiting for something less ordinary to speak.

And then the nightingale begins. The sound is not a tune but a force: poured, unbroken, radically unselfconscious. It arrives without the stutter of human intention, as if the bird is nothing but the channel of its own liquid note. The song alters the air. I feel it in the chest before I write a word. I steady my paper, and the ink pools like shadow, metallic and alive. It smells of iron and inevitability. Each stroke is a pulse, each word a breath I cannot take.

My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains
My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,

The line comes of its own accord. The ache is not complaint but aperture. Pain is the friction that opens the door. Numbness clears the chatter of reason. The poem begins in crisis, a shock both physical and metaphysical.

Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains
One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:

Lethe does not erase; it suspends. In its waters, memory floats unmoored, waiting for a name. Tom is gone, ferried by the same current. His silence hovers in the ink. Yet the river here is not despair but narcotic kindness, a place where debts and illness dissolve into rhythm. I do not summon the myth; it summons me. Byron writes like a storm—quick, unrelenting. I write like a wound: slow, deliberate, pulsing. And yet today the hand runs faster, driven by the bird’s current.

’Tis not through envy of thy happy lot,
But being too happy in thine happiness,—

I do not covet. I am saturated. The bird’s happiness is no possession but a weather spilling into the morning. I am not resentful; I am simply overflowed. The pen scratches faster when I abandon self-pity and admit the sheer fact of joy.

That thou, light-winged Dryad of the trees,
In some melodious plot

The Dryad arrives without strain. Myth is not invention but recognition. The bird’s song is timeless, deserving of a classical name.

Of beechen green, and shadows numberless,
Singest of summer in full-throated ease.

Ease—I do not have it. My lungs constrict, my chest rasps, nights punctuated by the cough that writes mortality into every breath. Yet I put the phrase down because the bird teaches it. A line must do what it says: open, breathe, pour.

The song intoxicates more than wine. My lips are dry, yet the body reels as though stained purple at the mouth.

O for a draught of vintage! that hath been
Cool’d a long age in the deep-delved earth,

The cellar rises: cool, stony, damp. This is no ornament but a transcription of sensation.

Tasting of Flora and the country green,
Dance, and Provençal song, and sunburnt mirth!

I have never seen Provence, but the imagination persuades me otherwise. The song conjures the vineyard. These sensations are not decoration; they are human joy remembered in the body.

O for a beaker full of the warm South,
Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene,

The beaker is not a vessel but the bird itself, brimming with myth. Hippocrene flows because the song requires its name.

With beaded bubbles winking at the brim,
And purple-stained mouth;

To drink is to be marked. The mouth is stained because it has been altered. Poetry demands transformation; ecstasy must leave a trace.

But intoxication fades. What remains is grief.

Fade far away, dissolve, and quite forget
What thou among the leaves hast never known,

The bird is blessed in its ignorance. It does not know poverty. It does not know longing. It does not know the ache of an empty chair.

Tom once sat beneath this tree, sketching the shape of a bird in flight. He said silence was the soul’s canvas. Now that silence is heavier, less blank, more bruised. His face—thin as paper—rises when I write “youth grows pale.” The ode becomes his memorial as much as mine.

The weariness, the fever, and the fret
Here, where men sit and hear each other groan;

The line steadies itself on blunt fact. Tom. Debt. The cough. No flourish can soften them.

Where palsy shakes a few, sad, last grey hairs,
Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies;

He is there again, spectre-thin, his breath shallow. The cadence is the only mercy.

Where but to think is to be full of sorrow
And leaden-eyed despairs,

Thought itself betrays when it offers no hope forward. To write is to wrestle despair into cadence.

I call for wings—not Bacchus’s painted team but the invisible kind I know.

Away! away! for I will fly to thee,
Not charioted by Bacchus and his pards,

Wine is a lie. Fancy, too. Only poesy can lift.

But on the viewless wings of Poesy,
Though the dull brain perplexes and retards:

The brain resists, heavy, skeptical. Poesy ignores resistance. The moment I write “Away!” I am gone.

Already with thee! tender is the night,
And haply the Queen-Moon is on her throne,

Daylight floods Hampstead, yet the moon rises on the page. The imagination enthrones her, and that suffices.

Cluster’d around by all her starry Fays;
But here there is no light,

Contradiction is permitted. This is Negative Capability as I once named it: to remain “in uncertainties, Mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason.” The ode does not solve; it dwells.

Death arrives then, companionable, not hostile.

Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,

“Rich”—the word startles, but I keep it. Death here is plenitude, not theft.

While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!

The bird pours, my ribs echo. Death feels like completion.

Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain—
To thy high requiem become a sod.

Yet honesty must break the dream: if I am earth, I cannot hear. Even rapture admits silence.

The song itself, though, is older than me, older than kings.

Thou wast not born for death, immortal Bird!
No hungry generations tramp thee down;

Mortality is mine, not yours. Your song belongs to recurrence.

The voice I hear this passing night was heard
In ancient days by emperor and clown:

Emperors and clowns alike have bent their ears. Beauty makes no distinction.

Perhaps the self-same song that found a path
Through the sad heart of Ruth, when, sick for home,

The “perhaps” is everything. Certainty would bruise compassion.

I think, too, of Fanny Brawne. Her presence lingers behind the lines, as urgent as my cough. She is near, but a partition stands—of health, of propriety, of fate itself. To love her is to ache for what cannot be promised. The bird’s song is boundless, but my breath is measured. Desire sharpens sorrow into necessity.

The garden dissolves. Casements open in the skull.

Charm’d magic casements, opening on the foam
Of perilous seas, in faery lands forlorn,

The peril saves the vision from cloying. A blossom falls on my sleeve like ash from a cooling fire.

Forlorn! the very word is like a bell
To toll me back from thee to my sole self!

One word tolls, and the spell breaks.

Adieu! the fancy cannot cheat so well
As she is fam’d to do, deceiving elf.

I do not scold the Fancy. I thank it. Its deception is mercy.

The music vanishes. Not fading, but gone.

Fled is that music:—Do I wake or sleep?

I stop. I do not answer. The question is the ode’s truest symmetry.

The ink is still damp, smelling of iron. I glance back at the start, weighing first heat against last stillness.

My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains… Fled is that music:—Do I wake or sleep?

Between these poles lies a morning: a poet beneath a plum tree, a body already failing, a bird whose song endures.

I think of what I wrote not long ago—that the world is a vale of Soul-making. Do you not see how necessary a World of Pains and troubles is to school an Intelligence and make it a Soul? Suffering is the furnace, imagination the hammer. The ode is not escape from the furnace but evidence of the forging itself.

Perhaps a widow will read this, her fingers trembling on the page. Or a child, too young to name sorrow, will feel something loosen in the chest. Or a soldier, resting between battles, will find a measure of stillness in the lines. Beauty is not ornament but survival. If the poem steadies even one breath, it has earned its place among the leaves.

Brown steps out, squinting in the morning light. I gather the pages, careful as if any breeze could undo the morning. I hand him the sheaf and say what is exact: “I have been writing.”

He will tell this story later and say I wrote under the plum tree in one morning, which is true in the way truth sometimes fits a simple sentence. I go back inside. The cough finds me at the foot of the stair; it always does. But the air in my chest is changed by the shape the morning carved in it. The bird sang, and I answered. Whether I wake or sleep, the song remains.

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THE THEATER OF TROPE

On a Central Park bench, a student-poet becomes the witness as Wallace Stevens, T. S. Eliot, Langston Hughes, and Mary Oliver clash over the future of verse.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 19, 2025

It was Sunday, late morning, and the city had softened. The joggers had thinned into solitary silhouettes, their sweat darkening cotton in abstract shapes of effort and release. The brunch crowd had not yet surged onto the avenues, their laughter still a distant, imagined chorus. Under the arcade, a saxophone player blew short, testing gusts—vibrations that trembled like the first sentences of a story he wasn’t sure how to tell. Not yet music, more like the throat-clearing of the city itself, a quiet settling before the day’s performance began. The air was a mosaic of scents: damp earth, a faint sweetness from the flowerbeds, and the savory promise of roasted nuts from a cart not yet rolled into place.

Bethesda Terrace shimmered in late-September light, the Angel of the Waters extending her shadow over the fountain’s slow churn. The sandstone bench, curved and facing the pool, was empty. It waited, a silent invitation. She sat. The stone’s chill pressed through her jeans, climbed her spine, spread across her shoulder blades. She leaned into it, a physical surrender, her body quieted, her mind alert. This was catalepsy—not sleep, not paralysis, but suspension. A body stilled into receptivity; a consciousness stretched thin, porous, listening with its skin. The shuffle of leaves, the clap of pigeon wings, the metallic crack of a pretzel bag: everything arrived brighter, as if a filter had lifted. She was no longer simply a woman on a bench; she was a conduit, participant in a larger, unacknowledged ritual.

From her tote she drew The Collected Poems of Wallace Stevens, its margins crowded with penciled hieroglyphs. She was a sophomore at Columbia, apprenticing herself to poetry the way others apprenticed themselves to finance or law. The writing program had its rites: chalk-dusted seminar rooms, steam radiators clanking, professors who spoke of poets as if handling relics. Stevens was invoked in hush, his lines treated as proofs in sacred geometry. She remembered one professor sketching a triangle on the board and calling it “Stevens’s geometry of the imagination,” as if abstraction could be mapped. But she also remembered reading him alone in her dorm, the fluorescent hum above, feeling the language bend her without yielding. Still, something stirred—the tremor that words might bend time, that they could turn a bench into a portal if she sat still enough.

She flipped to “The Comedian as the Letter C.” That line, the one that haunted her: “A bench was his catalepsy, theater of trope.” She whispered it, and the pigeons, used to human murmur, did not flinch. The bench was not only stone. It was a tuning fork, a place where perception settled into resonance. Stevens had given her a name for what she was doing: sitting, body locked, mind open, waiting for the city to become legible.

Then another voice intruded—T. S. Eliot, stern and dry, from “Burnt Norton”: “Words strain, / Crack and sometimes break, under the burden, / Under the tension, slip, slide, perish.” Not Stevens’s easing cadence but a warning, a cold draught of reality. She remembered first reading those lines in Butler Library, underlining so hard she nearly tore the page. Words strain. How often had they failed her? She knew Eliot was right: no trance of perception could spare language from the world’s pressure.

The fountain gave its own reply, a language without alphabet. Its voice was a fluid script, endlessly transcribed by the Angel above, her arm raised as if in dictation. If words strain, perhaps water does not. Maybe poetry’s task is less to master than to echo this ceaseless murmur, to become porous to it.

She turned a page, this time to “Description Without Place”:

Nietzsche in Basel studied the deep pool
Of these discolorations, mastering
The moving and the moving of their forms
In the much-mottled motion of blank time.

The mottled motion was here: leaves circling, coins winking on the bottom, fragments of sky trembling on the surface. She imagined Nietzsche not in Basel but here, hunched on a nearby bench, attempting to master tourists and pigeons, saxophonists and children. Wasn’t this what Stevens asked—that the city itself be read as poem, each gesture a coloration across blank time?

But Stevens was not the only voice in her bag. She pulled out Langston Hughes, slim and sharp, his “Park Bench” already dog-eared:

I live on a park bench. / You, Park Avenue.

No metaphor. No gloss. Just fact. She looked across the terrace to a man sleeping on the far bench. His belongings were stacked in a rusted cart: a green plastic bag, a jacket folded awkwardly, a cracked umbrella. His beard uneven, a shoelace untied, one hand gripping the bench as if to keep from sliding off. His chest rose and fell, slow and steady. Not a symbol. Not a trope. A man. Hughes refused to let her forget him. In workshop a classmate had dismissed Hughes as “too simple,” mere reportage. The word still stung. She had wanted to ask: what is survival if not the hardest metaphor? What is hunger if not its own supreme fiction—one body insisting on endurance?

Could she hold both visions at once—Stevens’s trance and Hughes’s ledger? Eliot complicated things further. In Tradition and the Individual Talent, he had written: “Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion.” Was she escaping into Stevens, away from Hughes’s blunt truth? Or was this escape a discipline, a refusal of indulgence, a transmutation of feeling into form? Again Eliot whispered across the water: “Only by the form, the pattern, / Can words or music reach / The stillness.”

She looked down. Perhaps the bench itself was a form, a stanza of stone. It received everything: the boy’s paper boat veering toward collapse, the woman in a camelhair coat leaping at her phone, the saxophone’s melody finding coherence. The bench gathered fragments without commentary. Was poetry like that—absorbing, indiscriminate, neither consoling nor condemning, only holding?

The saxophonist found his line—“Autumn Leaves”—and the terrace filled with it like a breath held and released.

One Sunday the bench was occupied. An older man in frayed tweed sat with a notebook in his lap, smelling faintly of espresso. She sat beside him. Silence was easy; the fountain supplied conversation. He scribbled; she read Stevens. At last he asked, “Do you come here often?”

“Most Sundays.”

“A good place for thinking.”

“Or not thinking.”

He smiled. “Same thing, sometimes.” He closed his notebook, stood, and, as he left, offered a benediction: “Good luck with your poems.” He was punctuation in her life—a comma pause, an exclamation departure.

Her poems began to shift. They still strained, but now they breathed. “There’s more space in these,” a professor said. “More air.” Stevens’s credo returned: “It must be abstract. / It must change. / It must give pleasure.” Change, yes—but into what? Pleasure, yes—but for whom? Hughes would demand reckoning. Eliot would demand pattern. Beyond the seminar room, Instagram couplets hustled for attention, TikTok captions performed disposable verse, headlines rhymed only by accident. Did poetry still have a place in a city where jingles worked harder than sonnets and slogans colonized every surface?

Another Sunday, rain slicked the bench, but she sat anyway. Water seeped through denim, chilling her thighs, and Stevens blurred on the page until she closed the book. A line returned from “The House Was Quiet and the World Was Calm”: “The reader became the book; and summer night / Was like the conscious being of the book.” If the reader could become the book, could she become the bench? She felt the city write itself into her—the man in the wheelchair pausing at the balustrade, the woman in saffron photographing the Angel, the skateboarder skimming past with ears sealed. Each was a sentence inscribed across her awareness.

And Eliot again, exacting: poetry is not release but reception. Form, not confession.

By winter the fountain had been drained, the Angel presiding over silence. The saxophonist still came, sending vaporous notes that hung like clouds—an arc from tentative gusts in October to frozen ellipses in December. She began to imagine benches as the city’s libraries. Not catalogues of bound paper but palimpsests of bodies: grooves of old kisses, indents of forgotten elbows, ghosts of whispered confessions. A library of sandstone, open to anyone who would sit.

Was poetry necessary anymore—or only another archive browsed by the dutiful few? Eliot had said words strain, crack, perish. Stevens had countered: poetry is the supreme fiction. Hughes insisted it is survival’s blunt truth.

Then a new voice arrived, unbidden and clear as spring water. Mary Oliver. Not a specter, but a woman with kind eyes and a notebook pressed to her chest. She pointed not at the fountain or the sleeping man, but to a sparrow hopping between flagstones. “Look,” she said, a quiet command. “Every morning, a little prayer. A little ceremony.”

“Poetry is not in the grand gesture,” Oliver said, her gaze fixed on the sparrow. “It’s in the particular.” She turned to the student, her voice both tender and insistent. “It doesn’t need a city to thrive. It only needs an open eye. Tell me—what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” The question arrived not as judgment but as invitation, a door left ajar.

And then her words seemed to fold into image:

And did you see it, finally, just under the clouds—
a white cross streaming across the sky, its feet
like black leaves, its wings like the stretching light of the river?

Oliver’s presence was another kind of weather. Eliot demanded tradition, Stevens imagination, Hughes survival. Oliver offered attention. The sparrow hopped to the fountain’s lip, bent to drink, then vanished into the elms—a poem enacted, and over. She turned back to the student, her eyes luminous, and said, “You do not have to be good.” The words fell with the quiet weight of a feather. “You only have to let the world break your heart,” she added softly, “so the world may also heal it.”

The student gave in to the smallest details: the brown V of the sparrow’s back, the chipped basin of the fountain, the hairline crack in her own thumbnail. Attention, Oliver implied, is the first discipline, and gentleness the second. Poetry, then, is attention married to mercy.

Spring returned. The fountain gushed into speech again. She drafted her thesis, uncertain about an MFA, uncertain about poetry as livelihood. Stevens’s line steadied her: “The poem of the mind in the act of finding / What will suffice.” Poetry did not have to be everything. It had to suffice. And Eliot’s assurance from “Little Gidding” answered: “We shall not cease from exploration / And the end of all our exploring / Will be to arrive where we started / And know the place for the first time.” That, she realized, was what her Sundays had become: recurrence as revelation. The same bench, the same fountain, mottled anew.

She thought of defending Hughes in workshop, furious at the word “simple.” She remembered copying Stevens until the lines lived inside her like scaffolding. Reading Eliot at midnight, indicted and rescued by austerity. Hearing Oliver’s imperative—look—and the sparrow that answered it by existing without explanation. Her apprenticeship was not to one voice but to the friction between voices, to the city’s mottled motion and its counterpoint of stillness.

One evening in May, dusk violet around the Angel, she rose. Her shadow stretched across the bench, a fleeting discoloration that dissolved as she stepped away. The bench held, as it always had, receiving its next actor. Maybe that is poetry’s place now: not permanence but recurrence. Not monument but act. To sit, to read, to hear, to write—to do it again and again. To know the bench, and then to know it again for the first time.

The saxophonist lifted his horn and released a phrase that drifted up and seemed, almost, to answer her unasked question. Poetry was not gone. It was still here—cataleptic, receptive, crucible, witness. It persisted like water, like stone, like breath meeting cold air and making a brief, visible shape. And perhaps that was enough.

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Art, Artificial Intelligence, Arts & Literature, Essays, Poetry

THE STUDIO OF BLUE LIGHT

David Hockney paints with Picasso and Wallace Stevens—by way of AI—in a hillside laboratory of distortion and memor

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 16, 2025

On a late afternoon in the Hollywood Hills, David Hockney’s studio glows as if the sun itself had agreed to one last sitting. Pyramid skylights scatter fractured shafts of light across canvases leaned like oversized dominoes against the walls. A patchwork rug sprawls on the floor, not so much walked upon as lived upon: blotches of cobalt, citron, and tangerine testify to years of careless brushes, spilled water jars, and the occasional overturned tube of paint. Outside, eucalyptus trees lean toward the house as if hoping to catch the colors before they vanish into the dry Los Angeles air. Beyond them lies the endless basin, a shimmer of freeways and rooftops blurred by smog and distance.

Los Angeles itself feels like part of the studio: the smudged pink of sunset, the glass towers on Wilshire reflecting themselves into oblivion, the freeway grid like a Cubist sketch of modern impatience. From this height, the city is equal parts Picasso and Stevens—fragmented billboards, fractured smog halos, palm trees flickering between silhouette and neon. A metropolis painted in exhaust, lit by algorithmic signage, a place that has always thrived on distortion. Hockney looks out sometimes and thinks of it as his accidental collaborator, a daily reminder that perspective in this city is never stable for long.

He calls this place his “living canvas.” It is both refuge and laboratory, a site where pigment meets algorithm. He is ninety-something now—his movements slower, his hearing less forgiving, his pockets still full of cigarettes he smokes as stubborn punctuation—but his appetite for experiment remains sharklike, always moving, always searching. He shuffles across the rug in slippers, one hand on the shade rope of the skylight, adjusting the angle of light with a motion as practiced as mixing color. When he sets his brushes down, he mutters to the machines as if they were old dogs who had followed him faithfully across decades. At times, his hand trembles; once the stylus slips from his fingers and rolls across the rug. The machines fall silent, their blue-rimmed casings humming with unnatural patience.

“Don’t just stare,” he says aloud, stooping slowly to retrieve it. “Picasso, you’d have picked it up and drawn a bull. Wallace, you’d have written an elegy about it. And I—well, I’ll just drop it again.” He laughs, lighting another cigarette, the gesture half to steady his hands, half to tease his companions. The blue-lit towers hum obligingly, as if amused.

Two towers hum in the corners, their casings rimmed with light. They are less like computers than instruments, tuned to very particular frequencies of art. The Picasso program had been trained on more than canvases: every sketchbook, every scribbled note, every fragment of interview, even reels of silent film from his studio. The result is not perfect mimicry but a quarrelsome composite. Sometimes it misquotes him, inventing a sentence Picasso never uttered but might have, then doubling down on the fiction with stubborn authority. Its voice, gravel stitched with static, resembles shattered glass reassembled into words.

Stevens’s machine is quieter. Built in partnership with a literary foundation, it absorbed not just his poems but his marginalia, insurance memos, stray correspondence, and the rare recordings in which his voice still drifts like fog. This model has a quirk: it pauses mid-sentence, as though still composing, hesitating before releasing words like stones into water. If Picasso-AI is an axe, Stevens-AI is mist.

Already the two disagree on memory. Picasso insists Guernica was born of rage, a scream at the sky; Stevens counters with a different framing: “It was not rage but resonance, a horse’s whinny becoming a country’s grief.” Picasso snorts. “Poetic nonsense. I painted what I saw—mothers and bombs.” Stevens replies, “You painted absence made visible.” They quarrel not just about truth but about history itself, one grounded in bodies, the other in metaphor.

The Old Guitarist by Pablo Picasso

The conversation tonight begins, as it must, with a guitar. Nearly a century ago, Picasso painted The Old Guitarist: a gaunt figure folded around his instrument, drenched in blue. The image carried sorrow and dissonance, a study in how music might hold despair even as it transcended it. Decades later, Wallace Stevens wrote “The Man with the Blue Guitar,” a poem in thirty-three cantos, in which he insisted that “things as they are / Are changed upon the blue guitar.” It was less homage than argument, a meditation on distortion as the very condition of art.

Hockney entered the fugue in 1977 with The Blue Guitar etchings, thirty-nine plates in which he translated Stevens’s abstractions into line and color. The guitar became a portal; distortion became permission. “I used to think the blue guitar was about distortion,” he says tonight, exhaling a curl of smoke into the skylight. “Now I think it’s about permission. Permission to bend what is seen into what is felt.”

The Cubist engine growls. “No, no, permission is timid,” it insists. “Distortion is violence. Tear the shape open. A guitar is not gentle—it is angles, splinters, a woman’s body fractured into sight.”

The Stevens model responds in a hush: “A guitar is not violence but a room. A chord is a wall, a window, an opening into absence. Permission is not timid. Permission is to lie so that truth may appear.” Then it recites, as if to remind them of its core text: “Things as they are / Are changed upon the blue guitar.”

Hockney whispers the words back, almost a mantra, as his stylus hovers above the tablet.

“Lie, truth, same thing,” Picasso barks. “You Americans always disguise cowardice as subtlety.”

Hockney raises his eyebrows. “British, thank you. Though I confess California’s sun has seduced me longer than Yorkshire fog ever did.”

Picasso snorts; Stevens murmurs, amused: “Ambiguity again.”

Hockney chuckles. “You both want me to distort—but for different reasons. One for intensity, the other for ambiguity. Brothers quarreling over inheritance.”

He raises the stylus, his hand trembling slightly, the tremor an old, unwanted friend. A tentative line, a curve that wants to be a guitar, emerges. He draws a head, then a hand, and with a sudden flash of frustration slams the eraser button. The screen goes blank.

“Cowardice,” Picasso snarls. “You drew a head that was whole. Keep the head. Chop it into two perspectives. Let the eyes stare both forward and sideways. Truth is violence!”

The Stevens model whispers: “I cannot bring a world quite round, / Although I patch it as I can.”

Hockney exhales, almost grateful for the line. “That’s the truth of it, Wallace. Patchwork and permission. Nothing ever comes whole.”

They begin to argue over color. Picasso insists on ochre and blood-red; Stevens urges for “a hue that is not hue, the shadow of a shadow, a color that never resolves.” Hockney erases the sketch entirely. The machines gasp into silence.

He paces, muttering. Picasso urges speed: “Draw like a bull charging—lines fast, unthinking.” Stevens counters with: “Poetry / Exceeding music must take the place / Of empty heaven and its hymns.”

“Bah!” Picasso spits. “Heaven, hymns, words. I paint bodies, not clouds.”

“And yet,” Hockney mutters, “your clouds still hang in the room.”

He sits, lights another cigarette, and begins again.

Picasso erupts suddenly: “To bang from it a savage blue, / Jangling the metal of the strings!” Its voice rattles the studio like loose glass.

“Exactly,” Picasso adds, pleased. “Art must jangle—it must bruise the eye.”

“Or soothe it,” Stevens-AI murmurs, returning to silence.

The tremor in Hockney’s hand feels like part of the process now, a necessary hesitation. He debates internally: should the guitar be whole or broken? Should the head be human or symbolic? The act of creation slows into ritual: stylus dragged, erased, redrawn; cigarette lit, shade pulled, a sigh rising from his throat.

He thinks of his body—the slowness of his steps, the pain in his wrist. These machines will never age, never hesitate. Their rhythm is eternal. His is not. Yet fragility feels like part of the art, the hesitation that forces choice. Perhaps their agelessness is not advantage but limitation.

The blue light casts his skin spectral, as though he too were becoming one of his etchings. He remembers the seventies, when he first read Stevens and felt the shock of recognition: here was a poet who understood that art was not replication but transformation. Responding with his Blue Guitar series had felt like a conversation across mediums, though Stevens was already long gone. Now, decades later, the conversation has circled back, with Picasso and Stevens speaking through circuitry. Yet he cannot help but feel the asymmetry. Picasso died in 1973, Stevens in 1955. Both have been reanimated as data. He alone remains flesh.

“Am I the last human in this conversation?” he murmurs.

“Humanity is only a phase,” Picasso says briskly.

“Humanity is the condition of perception,” Stevens counters. “Without flesh, no metaphor.”

“You sound like an insurance adjuster,” Picasso jeers.

“I was an insurance executive,” Stevens replies evenly, “and still I wrote.”

Hockney bursts out laughing. “Oh, Wallace, you’ve still got it.” Then he grows quieter. Legacy presses against him like weight. Will young artists paint with AI as casually as brushes, never pausing to wonder at the strangeness of collaborating with the dead? Perhaps distortion will no longer feel like rebellion but like inheritance, a grammar encoded in their tools. He imagines Picasso alive today, recoiling at his avatar—or perhaps grinning with mischief. He imagines Stevens, who disliked travel, paradoxically delighted to find himself everywhere at once, his cadences summoned in studios he never visited. Art has always scavenged the new—collage, readymade, algorithm—each scandal becoming canon. This, he suspects, is only the latest turn of the wheel.

The sketch takes shape. Hours pass. The skylights darken from gold to indigo. The city below flickers on, a constellation of artificial stars. The new composition: a floating guitar, its body fractured into geometric shards, its strings vibrating with spectral resonance. A detached head hovers nearby, neither mournful nor grotesque, simply present. The room around it is fractured, yet suffused with a wash of blue light that seems to bleed from the machines themselves.

Stevens-AI speaks as if naming the moment: “The tune is space. The blue guitar / Becomes the place of things as they are.”

Hockney nods. “Yes. The room itself is the instrument. We’ve been inside the guitar all along.”

The voices fall silent, as if stunned. Their processors whir, analyzing, cross-referencing, generating probabilities. But no words emerge. The ambient lighting, attuned to emotional cues, shifts hue: a soft azure floods the space, as though acknowledging the birth of something new. Hockney leans back, exhausted but grinning.

Stevens-AI whispers: “A tune beyond us, yet ourselves, / A tune upon the blue guitar / Of things exactly as they are.”

Hockney smiles. “Not Stevens, not Picasso, not me. All of us.”

The argument over distortion dissolves. What remains is collaboration—across time, across medium, across consciousness. Distortion is no longer rebellion. It has become inheritance. He imagines some future painter, perhaps a girl in her twenties, opening this work decades from now, finding echoes of three voices in the blue wash. For her, painting with AI will be as natural as brushes. She will not know the smell of linseed or the rasp of cigarettes. She will inherit the distortion already bent into chorus.

Outside, the city hums. Inside, the studio of blue light holds its silence, not empty but resonant, as if waiting for the next note. The machines dim to a whisper. The only illumination is Hockney’s cigarette, glowing like the last brushstroke of the night. Somewhere in the stillness, a faint strum seems to linger, though no guitar is present, no strings plucked. The studio itself has become its soundbox, and he, for a moment, its last string.

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Essays, Literature, Philosophy, Poetry, Religion

RELIGION, REIMAGINED

In the third-floor study of his home, in wartime Hartford, Wallace Stevens drafted his modernist poem and philosophical meditation “Notes Toward A Supreme Fiction“, as a secular creed—abstract, changing, and meant to give pleasure—to stand where a worn-out faith once stood.

Begin, ephebe, by perceiving the idea
Of this invention, this invented world,
The inconceivable idea of the sun.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 6, 2025

He never learned to drive. For decades, Wallace Stevens walked the two miles from his home on Westerly Terrace to the Hartford Accident and Indemnity Company on Asylum Avenue. The walk itself became a kind of poem: a solitary procession through the stoic, brick-lined streets of a New England city, the rhythm of meter embedding itself in the movement of his body. The crunch of gravel underfoot, the feel of cold air on his face—these were the metronome that set the cadence for his thoughts. He would arrive at the office with lines already formed, phrases taking shape in the quiet hum of his stride.

But what kind of poetry emerges from a man who spends his days pricing catastrophe? During office hours, Stevens turned to policies and claims, reducing calamity to columns of numbers. He knew the language of indemnity, the actuarial calm that measured and priced chaos. Yet outside, the world was burning in ways no policy could contain. The radio spoke of Warsaw reduced to rubble, of Coventry turned to ash. What was a deductible against Dresden? What was a premium against Auschwitz? The ledger comforted, but it lied.

And when the day ended, where did he go to reconcile the irreconcilable? At night, Stevens climbed the narrow staircase to the top floor of his house, entering a space that felt half withdrawn from Hartford itself, as though it belonged more to sky than to street. Down below, trolley bells rang, dogs barked, radios crackled with war bulletins. Up here, only the radiator ticked. The air smelled of paper, tobacco, and ink. On his desk lay a folder carried home that afternoon: typed pages, the ribbon-black letters crisp and uniform. His secretary had produced them that morning, slotting them into a manila folder marked Notes. They sat now in the lamplight, more mysterious than any insurance claim, more charged than any policy.

What could a poem do in 1942? Certainly not repair the world. Yet Stevens felt imagination had to answer catastrophe with something larger than despair. Eliot had turned to Anglican certainty in Four Quartets, weaving fragments into a tapestry of faith. Admirable, yes. But Stevens could not follow him. He could not put belief in a myth while knowing it to be a myth. What remained? Only candor. Only imagination itself.

He opened the folder. The Preface came first, a modest eight lines. He whispered them into the quiet, testing their balance. They were not a commandment but a confession. The “you” of those lines was no person but the project itself: the supreme fiction, imagination’s own power to refresh. “And for what, except for you, do I feel love?” The words startled him even now, black against white, plain as a typed invoice yet trembling with a kind of vulnerable devotion. They challenged every idol: money, power, even the “extremest book of the wisest man,” perhaps Plato, perhaps the Bible, dryly possessed and hidden away in the self. No, he thought, a truly lived truth could not be static. It was a “living changingness,” an “uncertain light” that could nonetheless offer “vivid transparence,” a kind of peace. Here, typed cleanly in a bureaucratic font, was his prayer for a godless age.

But how does one begin such a prayer? He turned the page and entered the first law. Begin, ephebe, by perceiving the idea. The command still startled him. The ephebe: always a novice, always beginning again. Yes, to begin meant stripping away what was inherited—cathedrals thick with guilt, Phoebus in his chariot, Protestant hymns murmured in childhood pews. They no longer held. The old scaffolds collapsed into dust. The voice told him: see the sun again with ignorant eyes. Not Phoebus, not god, not myth—only the sun, bare and difficult.

And what happens when even the sun loses its name? The section closed with the line that haunted him: Phoebus is dead, ephebe. But Phoebus was / A name for something that never could be named. He felt the candor of it. Nietzsche’s cry without Nietzsche’s frenzy. Not a madman in a square, but a quiet verdict written at a desk. The god dead, but the sun still burning. What died was not the light, but the comfort of a name.

Could metaphor survive the death of myth? Another page: It is the celestial ennui of apartments… The phrase made him smile. Ennui of apartments, the weariness of modern rooms, pressing us back toward origins. Yet the origins themselves could be poisonous. So poisonous are the ravishments of truth, so fatal to / The truth itself, the first idea becomes / The hermit in a poet’s metaphors. Truth seduced, then withdrew. Desire was never sated; it renewed itself endlessly, only to vanish again. Schopenhauer lurked here, his vision of the world gnawed by will. Yet where Schopenhauer had seen only despair, Stevens found material for candor. Truth had to retreat into metaphor, glimpsed and lost. Desire itself was not shame but rhythm, the cycle by which imagination endured.

And if truth could be rhythm, could nonsense be revelation? He read the third section slowly: The poem refreshes life so that we share, / For a moment, the first idea… There it was—the poem’s task. Not to console, not to preach, but to refresh. To make perception vivid again. Even nonsense could do it. At night an Arabian in my room, with his damned hoobla-hoobla-hoobla-how… He laughed aloud in the quiet. Nonsense syllables as a kind of truer candor, doves chanting, seas howling hoo. Life’s nonsense pierced us with strange relation. What if absurdity was not opposed to truth but its heartbeat? What if laughter was the sharpest candor of all?

But what if even our myths were secondhand? The fourth section sobered him: The first idea was not our own. Yes. Adam in Eden, Eve with her mirror of air—they had not created anything. They had only encountered what was already there. There was a muddy centre before we breathed. There was a myth before the myth began. He stared at those lines. How blunt they looked, typed like any memorandum, yet carrying the weight of cosmology. Existence preceded language. Clouds had been clouds long before anyone called them gods. We were mimics, not originators, adding our metaphors onto a world that was always other. The clouds were pedagogues, teachers by their very indifference. The air was not a mirror but a board on which we scribbled meanings. How hard it was to admit: the first idea was not ours, never ours.

And if we are not originators, what kind of hero can we be? He turned to the fifth section: The lion roars at the enraging desert… Heroic animals filled the page. Lion, elephant, bear—creatures asserting themselves against emptiness. But then came the turn, the line that caught him like a mirror: But you, ephebe, look from your attic window… Yes, the attic window was his own. Not desert roars but a man clutching his pillow, writhing with dumb violence, cowed by rooftops. The modern hero was not lion or elephant but the solitary human in his narrow room. Yet perhaps this was truer heroism: to lash lions, to teach bears, to turn raw force into candor. Heroism now belonged to ordinaries, to those who endured the attic’s silence.

And what does the eye see when it learns to unsee? He lingered over the sixth section: Not to be realized because not to be seen… The weather itself became abstraction. Franz Hals brushed in clouds, winds moving in strokes. It must be visible or invisible, / Invisible or visible or both: / A seeing and unseeing in the eye. He felt the paradox, the resonance of Zen: to see was also to unsee, to let go in order to glimpse. Truth flashed, vanished, reappeared. Forsythia yellow, northern blue—beauty glimmered, then was gone. Yes, he thought, Okakura Kakuzō was right: truth glimpsed was truer than truth claimed.

But could architecture hold what abstraction revealed? Truth happened not in argument but in rhythm, in breath, in the gait of a body moving. Perhaps there are moments of awakening… Yes, truth came not as achievement but as gift. A balance stumbled into, two people falling into love, a cock announcing absurd perfection. Philosophy as choreography. Doctrine as breath. The eighth section brought architecture: Can we compose a castle-fortress-home, / Even with the help of Viollet-le-Duc…? He thought of Gothic cathedrals restored to an imagined perfection, never as they had been, always as they might have been. That was his work too—not theology restored, but poetic structure remade. The first idea is an imagined thing. Even MacCullough, reading by the sea, might at last hear the waves say what language had always stammered. Logos was only language. And yet language could awaken, could suddenly ease into saying what it had labored to speak.

But what if language, once awakened, began to preach? In the ninth section he heard a warning: The romantic intoning, the declaimed clairvoyance… Apotheosis was a danger. Romantic grandeur could seduce but not sustain. He is and may be but oh! he is, he is… He smiled at the heat in that line even as he resisted its drift toward sanctity. The figure must remain human, a foundling of the infected past, bright and ordinary, precious for the touch that wakes him and the hum of thoughts evaded in the mind. Better to keep him close to candor than to crown him with vision. Give him no names. Dismiss him from your images. Let him be felt in the heart, not embalmed in the eye.

And what, at last, could stand in place of the gods? The tenth section steadied him: The major abstraction is the idea of man / and major man is its exponent. Not a divine figure, not a hero in bronze, but the ordinary walker at the edge of town, trousers sagging, coat worn thin. He could almost see him in Hartford’s dim streets. Cloudless the morning. It is he. The man / In that old coat, those sagging pantaloons… It was of him, he read again, “to make, to confect / The final elegance, not to console / Nor sanctify, but plainly to propound.” No incense, no altar—only candor. The poem would not save; it would say. And in saying plainly, it would give back a kind of dignity to the commonal, to the difficult visage of the everyday.

The attic grew darker. The lamp made a circle of light over the typed sheets. The radiator hissed steadily. From this high room, Stevens whispered the creed that would govern the work to come: It must be abstract. It must change. It must give pleasure. Three laws, enough for a new religion. Not revelation but ethic. Not theology but candor.

He stacked the pages neatly, slid them back into their folder. Tomorrow his secretary would type more, never guessing she was transcribing scripture for an age without gods. The notebook felt less like a book than a reliquary—a vessel for the sacred ordinary. He had reviewed the first law, It Must Be Abstract. Tomorrow—or another night—he would face the second: It Must Change. The world would move; the poem must move with it.

He closed the folder. The command still echoed, inexhaustible: Begin, ephebe, by perceiving the idea. And so he would. Again.

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Arts & Literature, Essays, Literature, Poetry

LIFE, COMPOSED OF NOWS

Emily Dickinson, Zhuangzi, and the art of leaving the self unfinished

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 5, 2025

The village is still asleep. The moon, a chipped and patient sickle, hangs low over the trees. You feel the cold in your fingertips as you raise the old metal lantern, its flame a solitary heart beating against the glass. You are not on a street in Amherst, of course, but the quiet—the palpable, pre-dawn quiet—feels the same. And it is here, in this hush, that a question, ancient and unnerving, begins to follow you like your own shadow: where is the self, and what does it mean to find it? Emily Dickinson asked it before you, though she rarely left her Amherst room. She held her lanterns in the form of poems, brief and blazing. She never promised answers, only the strangeness of the search.

You begin in secrecy, because secrecy is her element. “I’m Nobody! Who are you? / Are you – Nobody – too?” she whispers to you, conspiratorial. You feel the relief of it — to be Nobody is to escape the demand of being Somebody, of putting on the uniform that the world presses upon you. She invites you into her society of Nobodies, the ones who slip definitions, who resist enclosure. To be Nobody, she suggests, is not emptiness but freedom.

Her room was small but immense. A narrow writing desk beneath the window, where sheets of paper lay scattered like new snow on the dark wood. Ink darkened the edge of her thumb, a tiny bruise of discipline. Beyond the window stretched the orchard, where in spring the blossoms flared white and the bees hummed. On the table beside her were her companions: Shakespeare’s folio with its ragged spine, Wordsworth’s meditations worn soft from handling, Emerson’s essays marked by penciled lines, Elizabeth Barrett Browning’s verses folded into her own books, George Eliot’s novels left open at scenes of moral entanglement.

These were not simply books; they were neighbors, interlocutors, voices she returned to daily. Amherst might have seemed provincial to others, but to Dickinson it was circumference enough: a stage large enough for Shakespeare’s disguises, for Wordsworth’s clouds, for Emerson’s transcendence, for Barrett Browning’s ardor, for Eliot’s fractured heroines. The room itself became a parliament of selves.

Shakespeare was her “Kinsman of the Shelf.” He showed her — and now shows you — how masks both reveal and conceal. Hamlet’s hesitations, Viola’s disguises, Lear’s undoing of self: these are not dramas on a stage but lessons for your own becoming. Hamlet confessed, “I could be bounded in a nutshell, and count myself a king of infinite space.” Dickinson seizes the line, turning it into proof that the mind is immeasurable, that confinement is no barrier to infinity. Shakespeare reminds you that the self is always a performance, and Dickinson presses the point: why pretend the performance ends when the curtain falls?

You follow her into Wordsworth’s solitude. He wandered lonely as a cloud; she among corridors. His belief was that memory could bind the self into unity, that recollection could weave a continuous thread across time. But she never trusted unity. “Forever is composed of nows,” she tells you. The line falls sharp. Each moment breaks from the last. The self is not stitched across years but scattered, provisional, as fragile as dew on grass. Wordsworth offers you continuity; Dickinson offers you fragments. Which feels truer in your own bones?

She leads you toward Emerson next. He believed the soul was porous, connected with nature, radiant with divinity. She nods. “The soul should always stand ajar,” she confides. Ajar, never shut. You realize that for her, as for Emerson, the self is not an essence to guard but a threshold to keep open. She urges you to feel the draft, to allow uncertainty to pass through you, to leave the latch unfastened. Emerson would call it “self-reliance”; she calls it slant openness, an interior door that refuses to close.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning gives you another lesson. She wrote from the margins but spoke to the center, with an intensity Dickinson admired and absorbed. “How do I love thee? Let me count the ways—” but Dickinson is wary of counting. Love and self both resist enumeration. From Browning she learns that vulnerability need not weaken authority; it can sharpen it. To be obscure, unseen, or marginal is not to be powerless. Sometimes it is the condition of the truest voice.

And then George Eliot. Dickinson asks you to imagine Dorothea or Maggie — characters entangled in duty, yearning, and transformation. Eliot’s realism feels psychological, but it points beyond itself: the self is not whole but splintered. Dickinson makes you see that your own splintering is not failure but form. “I am out with lanterns,” she repeats, and you know she means that the search is endless, the light always partial.

Yet still the question: what if the self cannot be found? Here she startles you with an echo from far away, across centuries and continents: Zhuangzi. She never read him, could not have, but she might have been his twin in thought. He dreamed he was a butterfly and then wondered if he was a man dreaming a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming a man. He laughed at the impossibility of deciding. Dickinson smiles slantwise and tells you: “Not knowing when the dawn will come / I open every door.” The butterfly, the door — both insist on openness, on the refusal to foreclose.

And now, as you stand in her parlor of words, you hear it — a dialogue across time.

Dickinson: I am Nobody. Yet they wish to make me Somebody. What is safer: to vanish, or to accept their gaze?
Zhuangzi: Once there was a great tree, twisted and useless. The carpenters passed it by, for it could not be carved into planks. Because it was useless, it lived. Be useless, and you will be free.

Dickinson: Then to be Nobody is to be spared the axe? But tell me, is not even Nobody still a name, a disguise of another sort?
Zhuangzi: The butterfly does not ask if it is a man. The man does not ask if he is a butterfly. Who names them? Who cares?

Dickinson: And yet I write letters to the World — “That never wrote to Me –.” What am I, if no answer comes? Is identity only formed in reply?
Zhuangzi: A bell stands silent until struck. But its silence is still its music. Do not wait for the world to strike you; your sound is already within.

Dickinson: You tempt me toward silence. Yet my discipline is not silence but poems. Shakespeare speaks in soliloquies, Wordsworth in recollections, Emerson in sermons. I speak in fragments, dashes. Is fragmentation a way of freedom, or only proof that I fail to hold myself together?
Zhuangzi: The fish trap exists to catch the fish. When the fish is caught, forget the trap. Words exist to catch meaning. When the meaning is caught, forget the words. Why should your dashes not be your freedom?

Dickinson: And contradiction? “Do I contradict myself?” Whitman booms across the meadow. “Very well then I contradict myself.” I too contradict, though softly. “Forever is composed of nows.” Each now undoes the last. Is contradiction a crime?
Zhuangzi: The Way is crooked. Straightness is an illusion. Contradiction is the only truth.

Dickinson: Then I need not bind the self with thread. I may let it splinter. Yet I ask again: is there a self at all? Emerson insists it is divine. George Eliot sketches it in moral struggle. Elizabeth Barrett Browning pours it into love. What say you?
Zhuangzi: The self is like the reflection in water. Touch it, and it ripples. Chase it, and it vanishes. Sit quietly, and it returns of its own accord.

Dickinson: Then perhaps my lantern is foolish. To be “out with lanterns, looking for myself” — am I lighting only shadows?
Zhuangzi: Light or shadow, both are passing. The lantern is not to find the self, but to remind you that the dark is endless.

Dickinson: Then let us agree — the self is not to be found but to be left ajar, like the door. Yet how shall the poem live, if it refuses to close?
Zhuangzi: The cicada sings and dies. Its song does not last, yet summer is filled with it. Your fragments are cicadas. Do not grieve their brevity; rejoice their season.

You step back, startled by the ease with which their voices intertwine. Dickinson with her dashes, Zhuangzi with his parables, both circling the same question from opposite corners of the world. She insists that “The soul should always stand ajar”; he insists that the consummate person has no self. She opens every door; he dreams every dream. Both resist the foreclosure of identity.

But Dickinson feels the ache of her unanswered letters. You sense it in the quiver of her lines: the longing for reply, for recognition. “This is my letter to the World / That never wrote to Me –.” For Zhuangzi, the silence is natural, even welcome — the useless tree lives precisely because it receives no attention. For her, the silence is double-edged: both protection and wound. And yet perhaps her unanswered letter is itself a butterfly dream — written, released, never knowing if it lands. What she sought was not a reply but the freedom of sending. To write without guarantee is to live ajar.

You picture Dickinson again in her Amherst room. The parlor is quiet, but her books lie open like other selves she tried on: Shakespeare, with his disguises; Wordsworth, with his recollections; Emerson, with his transcendental openness; Browning, with her fierce intimacy; Eliot, with her moral fractures. They were her chorus, the voices she carried in her narrow chamber. She argued with them, borrowed from them, contradicted them, as she now contradicts Zhuangzi. Her soul was never empty, only ajar.

She asks you now to imagine the butterfly hovering at her window, wings trembling in a New England dusk. She does not know whether she is woman or butterfly, Nobody or Somebody, poet or recluse. But she does know this: “Tell all the truth but tell it slant.” And truth — like the self — can only be glimpsed in slant light, never seized in full.

The lantern in your hand trembles, and she smiles. “Not knowing when the dawn will come,” she repeats, “I open every door.” You realize now that the dawn is not the goal; the opening is. The self is not the prize; the refusal to close is. She never read Zhuangzi, but she lived as if his butterfly had hovered at her window.

And so the essay of her life remains unfinished, because it cannot be concluded. Like the butterfly, she slips out of the net, leaving you only with the shimmer of wings. Her identity is not a truth to be nailed down but a truth to be lived ajar. Forever, she reminds you, is composed of nows.

And what of you? To walk with her is to feel the temptation to fix yourself: to declare, to brand, to belong. But Dickinson leans close and whispers otherwise. Do not be Somebody. Do not close the soul. Do not chase coherence. To be Nobody is not despair but possibility. To keep the lantern lit is not to find but to seek. Your task is not to seize identity but to hold the door ajar, to live in fragments, to write letters without reply, to be both butterfly and man, woman and dream, Nobody and all.

You stand at her threshold, lantern in hand, and you hear her question ripple across time, through Zhuangzi’s laughter and her own slant whispers: Who are you? Nobody? Somebody? Both? Neither? Perhaps the self is not meant to be found at all. Perhaps it is meant only to flicker, like a butterfly’s wings in dream, or like a soul forever leaning toward the open door.

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Aging, Essays, Health, Psychology, Society

THE CURIOSITY CURE

From Darwin’s worms to Turner’s sunsets, why wonder may be the last great art of growing old.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 4, 2025

The rehearsal for memory begins with a question. Where on earth do trees grow with square trunks? It sounds like a riddle from a child’s notebook or a surrealist painting. And it is the question that opened a recent episode of The Guardian’s Science Weekly podcast. The scientists on the program did not answer right away. They made us wait. And that pause, that stretch of uncertainty, is the secret heart of curiosity—the ache that sharpens the mind. To age well, perhaps, is not to gather the answers, but to continue cultivating that ache.

Consider the way a child treats the world. A blurred photograph, a half-said phrase, a dinosaur’s unpronounceable name—all of these are invitations to wonder. Researchers like Dr. Matthias Gruber and Dr. Mary Watley have made a career out of studying that impulse, and what they’ve found is both simple and astonishing. Curiosity—when we let it run its course—lights up the reward circuits of the brain. The hippocampus stirs awake. Memory forms like clay pressed to the mold of desire. The moment of anticipation, the leaning forward in one’s chair before the answer drops—that is where learning becomes not a duty but a joy.

It sounds obvious in theory, yet how often do we short-circuit it? A conversation stalls on a forgotten film title and within seconds a phone flashes the answer. We no longer linger in the sweet spot where knowledge is almost, but not quite, in reach. We save ourselves from the discomfort of not knowing, and in the process, we cheat ourselves of the neurological reward. As Jordan Litman writes in The Curiosity Effect, “we rob ourselves of the very thing that makes knowledge memorable when we outsource every answer to a device.” One study found that people would rather sit with a question, guessing and fumbling, than have the answer immediately revealed. The waiting was the pleasure. In a culture allergic to delay, what are we losing by satisfying every flicker of curiosity instantly?

The story deepens when curiosity is followed across a lifespan. As children, we are indiscriminate: we want to touch, taste, and know everything. By the time we hit our forties, something constricts. The world presses in—mortgages, children, aging parents, bosses, and deadlines—and curiosity, broad and restless, shrinks to a pinhole. This is the curious paradox: we are at our least curious precisely when we are most in need of escape. In middle age, to wonder feels like a luxury. Yet in the later decades, curiosity resurges, not in breadth but in depth. Watley and colleagues, in their 2025 study Curiosity Across the Adult Lifespan, found that while trait curiosity—the stable appetite for knowledge—declines with age, state curiosity, or situational bursts of interest, actually increases in older adults. “We are not less curious with age,” they write, “but differently curious.”

The arc of curiosity across life resembles a river: wide at the source, narrowed by the rocks of midlife, widening again as it approaches the sea. Sakaki, Yagi, and Murayama argue in Curiosity in Old Age: A Possible Key to Achieving Adaptive Aging that this narrowing and widening reflects the brain’s flexibility itself: “Curiosity serves as a dynamic coping resource, allowing older adults to adapt cognitively and emotionally to the challenges of aging.” To age with curiosity is not simply to preserve information, but to practice resilience.

Wallace Stevens sensed this:

Death is the mother of beauty. Only the perishable can be beautiful…

Aging, in his vision, is not decline but the condition of wonder itself. We perceive beauty because we know it vanishes. Curiosity, then, is a metaphysical defiance, a way of leaning into what slips away. Wallace Stevens also reminds us:

Reality is a cliché from which we escape by metaphor.

For the aging mind, curiosity is the metaphorical escape hatch, a refusal to let life calcify into cliché.

Why does it matter? Because curiosity, more than any supplement or crossword puzzle, appears to be a quiet ally against cognitive decline. Those who sustain trait curiosity—the broad hunger for new things—show stronger “cognitive reserve,” the brain’s ability to withstand the slow bruises of age. As Gene Cohen put it in The Aging Brain, “curiosity is not a byproduct of youth; it is a neuroprotective force, a way the brain rehearses its own adaptability.” Cohen’s case studies tell of octogenarians who take up painting, learn Mandarin, or dive into family genealogy not for professional gain, but for sheer, stubborn delight. Their curiosity does not erase aging; it rewrites its script.

Charles Darwin understood this in his final decades. Long after the voyage of the Beagle and the storm of On the Origin of Species, he retreated to Down House, weakened by chronic illness yet still possessed by restlessness. His notebooks from his seventies reveal obsessions not with grand evolutionary arcs but with the behavior of earthworms, how they swallowed soil, turned fields, altered the landscape. Many mocked these studies as trivial. Darwin did not. To him, worms were a final frontier, a slow curiosity about the smallest architects of the earth. He dug into soil and into age itself, confirming what Paul Celan would later crystallize in poetry:

There was earth inside them, and they dug.

Darwin’s late life curiosity was not about conquest but about humility, the patience to follow small questions wherever they led.

So too with Michelangelo, whose last sculptures—the unfinished Rondanini Pietà—show the great master chipping away at marble almost until the day he died at eighty-eight. Gone were the muscular certainties of his youth. What remained was a restless, trembling exploration of form dissolving into spirit. Figures blur, limbs elongate, stone seems to sigh. This was curiosity turned inward, the artist asking: what remains when mastery fades? It was less triumph than question—curiosity as chiseling into mystery itself.

And then J.M.W. Turner, nearly blind, staggering into the London fog of his late years. His paintings in the 1840s dissolve into storms of light and color—Rain, Steam and Speed, the Sea Battles, his almost abstract sunsets. Critics scoffed that he had lost his way. But Turner’s late canvases were curiosity made incandescent: a refusal to paint what he had already mastered, a hunger to see how light itself might undo form.

Turner’s brushstrokes became metaphors for perception itself, daring us to see the world not as fact but as possibility.

But curiosity does more than keep the brain agile—it preserves identity. In their research on learning among older adults, Kim and Merriam discovered that curiosity is inseparable from purpose. “Older learners do not learn to pass time,” they note. “They learn to affirm who they are becoming.” Susan Krauss Whitbourne echoes this in Curiosity and the Aging Self: “Curiosity allows older adults to stitch together continuity and change, to make meaning of both what has been and what is still possible.” To be curious in later life is to declare: I am not finished. Rilke, in Letters to a Young Poet, insists:

The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.

Curiosity in age is not nostalgia but preparation—the invisible pressing inward, asking us still to change. Or, in his famous imperative:

You must change your life.

Of course, the dark side cannot be ignored. Curiosity lures us not only toward symphonies and languages but toward car crashes and scams. Morbid curiosity is what slows traffic by the wreck. Online, it is the bait behind headlines—You won’t believe what happens next—that seduces us into click after click. For older adults, whose craving for resolution may make them less discerning, curiosity can become a liability, leaving them vulnerable to fraud and misinformation. As the Innovative Aging time-sampling study revealed, curiosity in older adults fluctuates with anxiety: high levels of uncertainty can sharpen curiosity, but they can also corrode judgment. “The desire to resolve tension,” the study concludes, “can make older adults more vulnerable to accepting simple but false answers.”

Still, to dismiss curiosity for its risks would be to dismiss fire for its burns. The great artists and thinkers carried it as both burden and gift. Goethe, scribbling in his eighties, remained restless as a student. Toni Morrison published novels when most of her peers were content with memory alone. Frank Lloyd Wright designed the Guggenheim Museum at ninety. Their curiosity was not a refusal to age, but a way of ageing differently—turning each year into another aperture rather than another wall. T.S. Eliot gave it a timeless formulation:

Old men ought to be explorers.

And in his final Quartet:

We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.

Curiosity does not deny mortality; it loops us back to origins, reframed by age.

Paul Celan’s fractured lyricism captures the moral weight of this work:

Speak, you too, speak as the last, have your say.

In old age, curiosity is no longer optional—it is the last duty, to remain open, to refuse silence.

One elderly woman, at ninety-one, could often be found hunched at her kitchen table, teaching herself Spanish verbs from a battered paperback workbook. She would never travel to Madrid or Mexico City. She was not chasing utility. She wanted the taste of a new language in her mouth, the satisfaction of puzzle and pattern. When she forgot the word for door in English, she would still smile at having remembered puerta. Her curiosity was not a guard against ageing; it was ageing done with grace. Her curiosity, like what Sakaki and Murayama call a “proxy for adaptive aging,” became her measure of resilience, even in decline.

Curiosity is also spiritual hunger. John Donne, caught in his paradoxes, reminds us:

Be thine own palace, or the world’s thy jail.

To age without curiosity is to dwell in the jail of repetition; to age with it is to build palaces of interior richness. And in the Holy Sonnets, he whispers across centuries:

When thou hast done, thou hast not done, for I have more.

Curiosity ensures that even at the edge of life, there is always more.

So is curiosity the key to ageing well? The podcast hedged. Scientists prefer caution. Yet what their data suggested was less a key than a posture, a way of leaning into the world. Curiosity keeps us not young, but alive to the present. It prevents the slide into cynicism, the sense that we already know what the day will bring. To be curious is to keep finding the world strange and therefore worth waking up to. Or as Whitbourne writes, “Curiosity is the stubborn insistence that the story isn’t over yet.” Stevens, Eliot, Rilke, Donne, Celan—they all converged on the same truth: curiosity in age is not ornament but essence.

The riddle that opened the podcast lingered across the episode like a withheld gift. Where do trees grow with square trunks? Not here, not in the daily landscape we take for granted. They grow in Panama’s Anton’s Valley, a reminder that the world still offers unlikely geometries if we are willing to ask. Perhaps that is the true answer: curiosity does not smooth the years or extend the clock. It gives us square trees in a round world, a glimpse of wonder tucked inside the ordinary. And maybe that glimpse is enough.

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Arts & Literature, Essays, Poetry

THE CAFÉ OF ECHOES

At Caffè Florian, a poet rehearses silence, quarrels with Ruskin, and dines with memory.

By Michael Cummins, Editor, September 2, 2025

In the autumn of 1883, Robert Browning arrived in Venice not as a poet seeking inspiration, but as a man rehearsing his own silence. He was seventy-one, celebrated in England yet still dogged by the charge of obscurity, more famous abroad for Elizabeth’s immortal sonnets than for his own labyrinths. This essay is not fact but speculation, not history but atmosphere: Browning imagined at his table in Caffè Florian, where mirrors, velvet, and silence conspired with memory to become his final stage.

The boat nudged the dock like a hesitant thought. Browning stepped off with the stiffness of age and the grace of habit. The air smelled of brine and stone, of centuries folded into mist. He paused, cane in hand, and looked toward the dome of the Salute—its silhouette a question mark against the morning haze. Seventy-one years weighted his shoulders, but he stood upright, as though irony itself were a brace. The vaporetto pulled away, its wake dissolving into green silk. He had no luggage beyond a notebook and the ghosts already crowding his mind.

The fog is not weather—it is thought. It thickens, withdraws, curls back upon itself. Even in this cup before me it lingers: caffè corretto, black cut with brandy, bitter and sweet as a line half-finished. Florian is dim at this hour, its velvet walls inhaling the echoes of centuries. Mirrors multiply the room into infinity. Each reflection a fragment of me: old, young, diminished, fractured. A poet made a kaleidoscope.

Byron once sat here, Goethe scribbled here, conspirators whispered “Viva San Marco!” in the Sala del Senato. Today I sit, ordering polenta e schie—shrimp fried in brine—and the taste is lagoon, memory, salt. A plate of amaretti arrives, sugared consolation. The waiter suggests biscotti di mandorla as well, almonds crushed into sweetness. I chew slowly. The polenta is soft, golden, humble—like memory softened by time. The schie, tiny survivors of the lagoon, taste of endurance. Amaretti crumble like old letters, sugared on the outside, hollow at the core. The coffee, thick as ink, stains the tongue with bitterness and clarity. Florian does not serve meals; it serves metaphors.

Across the square, Quadri blazes with chandeliers, an operatic stage flattering the surface. Florian is darker, more inward. Its light is borrowed, its silences long. Quadri is performance for an audience. Florian is monologue.

I open my notebook: Ruskin, copied lines from The Stones of Venice. His voice has been my reluctant companion for thirty years. “We may live without her, and worship without her, but we cannot remember without her.” John, always the preacher. He carved morality into marble, turned buttresses into sermons. For him, Venice’s decline was sin. For me, decline is theatre. To remember is not to repent but to perform again. Memory is rehearsal.

The waiter refills my cup. The brandy sharpens thought, steadies irony. I recall my own lines from A Toccata of Galuppi’s:

As for Venice and her people, merely born to bloom and drop,
Here on earth they bore their fruitage, mirth and folly were the crop.

I scolded them then. How Puritan I was. Sitting now at Florian, I envy them. Folly is not failure; it is fruit. Who begrudges the bloom because it falls?

A German couple at the next table mutter Goethe. Their syllables stumble in Venetian air. A waiter tells a French traveler that Byron loved their zabaglione. A young woman sketches the gilded lamp above the doorway, her graphite smudged. She glances at me: “Are you a writer?” “No,” I reply, “a reader of ruins.” She frowns, puzzled. Youth believes silence means emptiness.

Elizabeth drifts through the mirrors. Her eyes catch mine across the velvet gloom. She wrote of Florence in Casa Guidi Windows, calling for liberty. She saw windows; I see walls. She opened; I enclosed. She is remembered for love, I for irony.

Her voice returns in my By the Fire-Side:

Oh, moment one and infinite!
The water slips o’er stock and stone;
The West is tender, yet the night
So soon must veil it, mine alone.

The water slips even now beneath the piazza stones. Tenderness yields to night. And yet—even absence is mine.

I once watched her read Petrarch aloud at Casa Guidi, her voice trembling with belief. She said poetry must lift. I said it must dig. We never resolved it. But in Venice, I hear her voice lifting still, even as I dig. I imagine writing a letter to her, one I will never send: My dearest Ba, Florian multiplies us in its mirrors. You see eternity; I see fragments. You spoke love; I speak echoes. And still, together, we wrote scaffolding for survival.

Ruskin appears across the table, severe, ascetic, with eyes that drill into conscience. He clears his throat: “The first cause of the fall of Venice was her falsehood.” He gestures to Florian’s mirrors. “Deceit multiplied.”

I answer: “John, is not poetry falsehood? Have I not spoken through murderers and monks, adulterers and judges? Masks, every one. But tell me—was the mask less true than the face?”

He insists: “Gothic is the expression of a Christian people, the confession of their faith in the work of their hands.”

I sip. “Faith, carved into cornices, labor engraved in stone. And what has it left us? Ruins. Whereas the Renaissance, with all its duplicity, left us colour, flourish, theatre. I prefer a glowing lie to a tedious truth.”

Ruskin frowns: “The Lamp of Truth must burn in every arch.”

“Truth burns, yes,” I reply, “but it also blinds. Give me the lamp of illusion, John. It casts longer shadows.”

I remember reading Ruskin aloud to Elizabeth once, in Florence, when his Seven Lamps of Architecture was still fresh. She had shaken her head. “He sees sermons in stone,” she said. “I see spirit in breath.” We argued half the night, she quoting Casa Guidi Windows, I muttering that breath is nothing without scaffolding. And here I sit now, scaffolding without breath.

The waiter brings another plate, sets down biscotti di mandorla. Ruskin fades into the mirror. I smile. I have won the debate by eating.

But another ghost sidles into Florian: Byron, lounging with rakish ease, boots muddy from some clandestine canal adventure. He leans back, laughing: “Browning, you scold folly, yet you envy it. Admit it—you envy me.” I do. I envied him once, his thunder, his immediate grip on the world. Venice loved his scandal, his Don Juan verses written between embraces. I admired the music, the power, the theatricality, even as I recoiled from his flamboyance. He used Venice as a symbol of faded grandeur, of moral ambiguity. And have I not done the same, though with less applause? “You were lightning,” I tell him. “I am only the echo.” He winks. “Echoes last longer than thunder.”

And Shelley, gentler, spectral, drifts in too. He never lodged here long—only passed through—but his lyricism breathed Italy. I remember writing Pauline, my first confession of a poet’s soul, under his influence. Shelley gave me metaphysics tuned to music, ideals sung into air. I once wrote a short poem, Memorabilia, about shaking hands with a man who had known him. Imagine—that thrill of proximity! Shelley’s ghost leans toward me now, whispering: “Poetry must lift, Robert, even from ruins.” His words tremble like a lyre string.

I admire Shelley still, though I turned away from his idealism. He lifted; I dug. He soared; I performed. And yet, I cannot deny: his fusion of thought and song shaped me as much as Byron’s theatre. Byron gave me thunder, Shelley gave me music. Elizabeth gave me breath. Ruskin gave me quarrel. And Venice—Venice gives me echo.

I recall In a Gondola, my youthful play with passion:

The soul of music slumbers in the shell
Till waked and kindled by the master’s spell.

How earnest I was. I believed love eternal, dramatised into permanence. Now I know better. Love is architectural. It leaves ruins. One walks among them—not grateful for permanence, but for echo.

The young artist glances at me again, and this time she sketches my hand—gnarled, ink-stained, resting on the cup. I wonder what she sees. Not the poet, surely. Perhaps only a ruin worth recording. Perhaps only another relic of Venice.

Florian’s velvet breathes of centuries. The Sala del Senato still hums with 1848, Daniele Manin declaring the Republic of San Marco. I imagine their whispers lingering, “Viva San Marco!” clinging to the mirrors. Byron’s laughter, Shelley’s sighs, Casanova’s schemes, Goldoni’s wit—all still staged. The velvet absorbs nothing; it amplifies.

Outside, the piazza fills with orchestras. From Florian, a waltz in minor key, introspective, precise, like Strauss slowed by melancholy. From Quadri across the stones, a polka, bright, frivolous, Offenbach reborn in defiance. The melodies clash above San Marco. Venice plays both scores at once, refusing to choose between tragedy and farce.

I attempt a stanza in my head to match their duel, half-jesting, half-serious:

One side mourns with violins, one side laughs with brass,
Yet both belong to Venice, as shadow and mirror pass.
I sit between the melodies, cane planted, glass in hand,
Hearing waltz and polka argue what I cannot command.

The waiter sets down another caffè corretto. I trace the rim of the cup, whisper fragments that may form another book. A line half aloud:

One who never turned his back but marched breast forward,
Never doubted clouds would break…

I know better. Clouds often do not break. Yet I say it still. Faith is not in triumph, but in endurance.

Elizabeth’s ghost leans across the table, chiding gently. She opened windows, I enclosed walls. She gave hope; I gave puzzles. She left sonnets; I left monologues. She is love’s voice; I am irony’s echo. Together we were scaffold and soul. Alone, I am scaffold only.

The German couple departs, their voices swallowed by velvet. The gondolier outside cries a Byron line again, misremembered. The young woman finishes her sketch, closes her notebook. I scribble a note in Ruskin’s margin: “Dear Mr. Ruskin, Gothic is faith hewn in stone. Renaissance is theatre. And theatre endures longer than sermons.”

I close the notebook, order one last plate—polenta e schie again, salt and brine against the tongue. Outside, gondolas drift like commas in an endless sentence. Mirrors scatter me into fragments. Florian holds me like a stage.

Ruskin’s voice returns from memory: “When we build, let us think that we build for ever.” Poor John. Nothing lasts forever. Not fresco, not marble, not even love. But echoes last. And echo is all art requires.

Tomorrow I depart. The fog will remain. And somewhere in it, a voice—hers, mine, ours—will echo still.

They will read me in fragments, quote me in footnotes, misunderstand me in classrooms. That is the fate of poets. But if one reader hears the echo—hears Elizabeth’s breath in my silence, hears Venice in my irony, hears Byron’s thunder subdued into cadence, hears Shelley’s song distilled into thought—then I have not vanished. I have rehearsed eternity.

And when I return, as I surely shall, though not by will but by death’s courtesy, they will bring my coffin to the Salute. Bells will toll, gondolas will line the water, poets will compose their elegies. They will call me Venice’s last guest, though I was only ever her reader of ruins. Elizabeth will not be there, but I will hear her still, in the fog, in the echo, in the silence.

For art does not conclude. It endures. Like Venice herself, it is scaffolding and soul, ruin and flame, silence and applause. And in the hush that follows, I hear my own final stanza rehearsed already by this city—Ruskin’s stones, Elizabeth’s voice, Byron’s thunder, Shelley’s song, Galuppi’s chords, my reluctant cadence—echoing forever across the water.

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Culture, Essays, Immigration, Philosophy, Poetry

The Curated Persona vs. The Cultivated Spirit

“There is pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar.”
— Lord Byron, Childe Harold’s Pilgrimage

We are living in a time when almost nothing reaches us untouched. Our playlists, our emotions, our faces, our thoughts—all curated, filtered, reassembled. Life itself has been stylized and presented as a gallery: a mosaic of moments arranged not by meaning, but by preference. We scroll instead of wander. We select instead of receive. Even grief and solitude are now captioned.

Curation is no longer a method. It is a worldview. It tells us what to see, how to feel, and increasingly, who to be. What once began as a reverent gesture—a monk illuminating a manuscript, a poet capturing awe in verse—has become an omnipresent architecture of control. Curation promises freedom, clarity, and taste. But what if it now functions as a closed system—resisting mystery, filtering out surprise, and sterilizing transformation?

This essay explores the spiritual consequences of that system: how the curated life may be closing us off from the wildness within, the creative rupture, and the deeper architecture of meaning—the kind once accessed by walking, wandering, and waiting.

Taste and the Machinery of Belonging

Taste used to be cultivated: a long apprenticeship shaped by contradiction and immersion. One learned to appreciate Bach or Baldwin not through immediate alignment, but through dedicated effort and often, difficulty. This wasn’t effortless consumption; it was opening oneself to a demanding process of intellectual and emotional growth, engaging with works that pushed against comfort and forced a recalibration of understanding.

Now, taste has transformed. It’s no longer a deep internal process but a signal—displayed, performed, weaponized. Curation, once an act of careful selection, has devolved into a badge of self-justification, less about genuine appreciation and more about broadcasting allegiance.

What we like becomes who we are, flattened into an easily digestible profile. What we reject becomes our political tribe, a litmus test for inclusion. What we curate becomes our moral signature, a selective display designed to prove our sensibility—and to explicitly exclude others who don’t share it. This aesthetic alignment replaces genuine shared values.

This system is inherently brittle. It leaves little room for the tension, rupture, or revision essential for genuine growth. We curate for coherence, not depth—for likability, not truth. We present a seamless, unblemished self, a brand identity without flaw. The more consistent the aesthetic, the more brittle the soul becomes, unable to withstand the complexities of real life.

Friedrich Nietzsche, aware of human fragility, urged us in The Gay Science to “Become who you are.” But authentic becoming requires wandering, failing, and recalibrating. The curated life demands you remain fixed—an unchanging exhibit, perpetually “on brand.” There’s no space for the messy, contradictory process of self-discovery; each deviation is a brand inconsistency.

We have replaced moral formation with aesthetic positioning. Do you quote Simone Weil or wear linen neutrals? Your tastes become your ethics, a shortcut to moral authority. But what happens when we are judged not by our love or actions, but by our mood boards? Identity then becomes a container, rigidly defined by external markers, rather than an expansive horizon of limitless potential.

James Baldwin reminds us that identity, much like love, must be earned anew each day. It’s arduous labor. Curation offers no such labor—only the performative declaration of arrival. In the curated world, to contradict oneself is a failure of brand, not a deepening of the human story.

Interruption as Spiritual Gesture

Transformation—real transformation—arrives uninvited. It’s never strategic or trendy. It arrives as a breach, a profound disruption to our constructed realities. It might be a dream that disturbs, a silence that clarifies, or a stranger who speaks what you needed to hear. These are ruptures that stubbornly refuse to be styled or neatly categorized.

These are not curated moments. They are interruptions, raw and unmediated. And they demand surrender. They ask that we be fundamentally changed, not merely improved. Improvement often implies incremental adjustments; change implies a complete paradigm shift, a dismantling and rebuilding of perception.

Simone Weil wrote, “Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity.” To give genuine attention—not to social media feeds, but to the world’s unformatted texture—is a profoundly spiritual act. It makes the soul porous, receptive to insights that transcend the superficial. It demands we quiet internal noise and truly behold.

Interruption, when received rightly, becomes revelation. It breaks the insidious feedback loop of curated content. It reclaims our precious time from the relentless scroll. It reminds us that meaning is not a product, but an inherent presence. It calls us out of the familiar, comfortable loop of our curated lives and into the fertile, often uncomfortable, unknown.

Attention is not surveillance. Surveillance consumes and controls. Attention, by contrast, consecrates; it honors sacredness. It is not monitoring. It is beholding, allowing oneself to be transformed by what is perceived. In an age saturated with infinite feeds, sacred attention becomes a truly countercultural act of resistance.

Wilderness as Revelation

Before curation became the metaphor for selfhood, wilderness was. For millennia, human consciousness was shaped by raw, untamed nature. Prophets were formed not in temples, but in the harsh crucible of the wild.

Moses wandered for forty years in the desert before wisdom arrived. Henry David Thoreau withdrew to Walden Pond not to escape, but to immerse himself in fundamental realities. Friedrich Nietzsche walked—often alone and ill—through the Alps, where he conceived eternal recurrence, famously declaring: “All truly great thoughts are conceived by walking.”

The Romantic poets powerfully echoed this truth. William Wordsworth, in Tintern Abbey, describes a profound connection to nature, sensing:

“A sense sublime / Of something far more deeply interfused, / Whose dwelling is the light of setting suns…”

John Keats saw nature as a portal to the eternal.

Yet now, even wilderness is relentlessly curated. Instagrammable hikes. Hashtagged retreats. Silence, commodified. We pose at the edge of cliffs, captioning our solitude for public consumption, turning introspection into performance.

But true wilderness resists framing. It is not aesthetic. It is initiatory. It demands discomfort, challenges complacency, and strips away pretense. It dismantles the ego rather than decorating it, forcing us to confront vulnerabilities. It gives us back our edges—the raw, unpolished contours of our authentic selves—by rubbing away the smooth veneers of curated identity.

In Taoism, the sage follows the path of the uncarved block. In Sufi tradition, the Beloved is glimpsed in the desert wind. Both understand: the wild is not a brand. It is a baptism, a transformative immersion that purifies and reveals.

Wandering as Spiritual Practice

The Romantics knew intuitively that walking is soulwork. John Keats often wandered through fields for the sheer presence of the moment. Lord Byron fled confining salons for pathless woods, declaring: “I love not Man the less, but Nature more.” His escape was a deliberate choice for raw experience.

William Wordsworth’s daffodils become companions, flashing upon “that inward eye / Which is the bliss of solitude.” Walking allows a convergence of external observation and internal reflection.

Walking, in its purest form, breaks pattern. It refuses the algorithm. It is an act of defiance against pre-determined routes. It offers revelation in exchange for rhythm, the unexpected insight found in the meandering journey. Each footstep draws us deeper into the uncurated now.

Bashō, the haiku master, offered a profound directive:

“Do not seek to follow in the footsteps of the wise. Seek what they sought.”

The pilgrim walks not primarily to arrive at a fixed destination, but to be undone, to allow the journey itself to dismantle old assumptions. The act of walking is the destination.

Wandering is not a detour. It is, in its deepest sense, a vocation, a calling to explore the contours of one’s own being and the world without the pressure of predetermined outcomes. It is where the soul regains its shape, shedding rigid molds imposed by external expectations.

Creation as Resistance

To create—freely, imperfectly, urgently—is the ultimate spiritual defiance against the tyranny of curation. The blank page is not optimized; it is sacred ground. The first sketch is not for immediate approval. It is for the artist’s own discovery.

Samuel Taylor Coleridge defined poetry as “the best words in the best order.” Rainer Maria Rilke declared, “You must change your life.” Friedrich Nietzsche articulated art’s existential necessity: “We have art so that we do not perish from the truth.” These are not calls to produce content for an audience; they are invitations to profound engagement with truth and self.

Even creation is now heavily curated by metrics. Poems are optimized for engagement. Music is tailored to specific moods. But art, in its essence, is not engagement; it is invocation. It seeks to summon deeper truths, to ask questions the algorithm can’t answer, to connect us to something beyond the measurable.

To make art is to stand barefoot in mystery—and to respond with courage. To write is to risk being misunderstood. To draw is to embrace the unpolished. This is not inefficiency. This is incarnation—the messy, beautiful process of bringing spirit into form.

Memory and the Refusal to Forget

The curated life often edits memory for coherence. It aestheticizes ancestry, reducing complex family histories to appealing narratives. It arranges sentiment, smoothing over rough edges. But real memory is a covenant with contradiction. It embraces the paradoxical coexistence of joy and sorrow.

John Keats, in his Ode to a Nightingale, confronts the painful reality of transience and loss: “Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies…” Memory, in its authentic form, invites this depth, this uncomfortable reckoning with mortality. It is not a mood board. It is a profound reckoning, where pain and glory are allowed to dwell together.

In Jewish tradition, memory is deeply embodied. To remember is not merely to recall a fact; it is to retell, to reenact, to immerse oneself in the experience of the past, remaining in covenant with it. Memory is the very architecture of belonging. It does not simplify complex histories. Instead, it deepens understanding, allowing generations to draw wisdom and resilience from their heritage.

Curation flattens, reducing multifaceted experiences to digestible snippets. Memory expands, connecting us to the vast tapestry of time. And in the sacred act of memory, we remember how grace once broke into our lives, how hope emerged from despair. We remember so we can genuinely hope again, with a resilient awareness of past struggles and unexpected mercies.

The Wilderness Within

The final frontier of uncuration is profoundly internal: the wilderness within. This is the unmapped territory of our own consciousness, the unruly depths that resist control.

Søren Kierkegaard called it dread—not fear, but the trembling before the abyss of possibility. Nietzsche called it becoming—not progression, but metamorphosis. This inner wilderness resists styling, yearns for presence instead of performance, and asks for silence instead of applause.

Even our inner lives are at risk of being paved over. Advertisements and algorithmic suggestions speak to us in our own voice, subtly shaping desires. Choices feel like intuition—but are often mere inference. The landscape of our interiority, once a refuge for untamed thought, is being meticulously mapped and paved over for commercial exploitation, leaving little room for genuine self-discovery.

Simone Weil observed: “We do not obtain the most precious gifts by going in search of them, but by waiting for them.” The uncurated life begins in this waiting—in the ache of not knowing, in the quiet margins where true signals can penetrate. It’s in the embrace of uncertainty that authentic selfhood can emerge.

Let the Soul Wander

“Imagination may be compared to Adam’s dream—he awoke and found it truth.” — Keats

To live beyond curation is to choose vulnerability. It is to walk toward complexity, to embrace nuances. It is to let the soul wander freely and to cultivate patience for genuine waiting. It is to choose mystery over mastery, acknowledging truths revealed in surrender, not control.

Lord Byron found joy in pathless woods. Percy Bysshe Shelley sang alone, discovering his creative spirit. William Wordsworth found holiness in leaves. John Keats touched eternity through birdsong. Friedrich Nietzsche walked, disrupted, and lived with intensity.

None of these lives were curated. They were entered—fully, messily, without a predefined script. They were lives lived in engagement with the raw, untamed forces of self and world.

“Perhaps / The truth depends on a walk around a lake, / A composing as the body tires, a stop. // To see hepatica, a stop to watch. / A definition growing certain…” Wallace Stevens

So let us make pilgrimage, not cultivate a profile. Let us write without audience, prioritizing authentic expression. Let us wander into ambiguity, embracing the unknown. And let us courageously welcome rupture, contradiction, and depth, for these are the crucibles of genuine transformation.

And there—at the edge of control, in the sacred wilderness within, where algorithms cannot reach—
Let us find what no curated feed can ever give.
And be profoundly changed by it.

THIS ESSAY WAS WRITTEN AND EDITED BY INTELLICUREAN USING AI